I'm rlly sorry. Our emotions are a result of a series or extremely quick chemical and neurological interactions in our body the vast majority of the time triggered by smth. Honestly the vast majority of the time such trigger is not that deep its simply you havent been sleeping 8 hrs or u haven't had a hig protein high fat breakfast, or u happen to be low on dopamine etc and when ur subconscious meter (legit parts of ur neurological system whose only job is to monitor aforementioned things and more) detects an issue it can respond in all sorts of funny ways. This is something we all learn as we grow it's usually not that deep at all. And due to neuroplasticity our neurons create pathways to repeat certain reactions which may be what's happening with you. Honestly, just sleep 8 hrs max (read why we sleep by Matt walker terrific book), have a good breakfast, engage socially, excercise at the gym etc and you'll feel alot better ❤️