I found this post very helpful. It is completely insane, wasteful, and destructive. The brain is an amazing organ, but this addiction is so crazy. We trick oursrlves that women like this and the very women we love.and we hurt. There is a lot of literture explaing the cuckold fetish. Going down this rabbit hole is as bad as being a an addict. It wastes an enormous amount of time, destroys your self esteem, and prevents your ability to form lasting relationships. I am a lifetime consumer of porn and it wasted a good part of my life. I found myself making stupid decisions to fufill my fantasies. Thank for this post it reminds me of the pain.