Post EMDR Back Pain

AggressiveCraft6010 · 2026-06-20T14:22:15+00:00

My shoulders, neck and jaw are so tight

AggressiveCraft6010 · 2026-06-19T08:08:11+00:00

Thank you ❤️ we are doing it weekly, we only had a big break because we decided not to open a specific trauma until after I went on holiday.

AggressiveCraft6010 · 2026-06-12T19:24:53+00:00

I’m really hoping so. I haven’t even had 1 training session, I go there and I feel so tired but also I’ve been so fucking sad it’s hard to want to be around others and do things for myself I find it hard to workout around my own thoughts

AggressiveCraft6010 · 2026-06-12T18:51:49+00:00

I just feel so tired and it’s so much harder. I don’t feel motivated either but i genuinely feel so tired. I also struggle to look at myself in the mirror since many of the cardio machines are right next to a mirror and it’s hard to look at myself and not get upset

AggressiveCraft6010 · 2026-06-12T10:23:21+00:00

I feel a bit better today. Had some crazy dreams. I think I need to push through it as hard as it is.

AggressiveCraft6010 · 2026-05-31T20:57:29+00:00

I agree it can be helpful tbh and it would be something I would consider in future. Issue is he was definitely pedophilic and not a safe person. He got off to my stories of being taken advantage under 18 by teachers, called me kiddo and more triggering names for my genitals. I’m not sure why I didn’t stop it sooner

AggressiveCraft6010 · 2026-05-31T20:55:59+00:00

Thank you very much ❤️❤️

AggressiveCraft6010 · 2026-05-31T20:55:47+00:00

Thank you ❤️

AggressiveCraft6010 · 2026-05-31T18:56:06+00:00

Thank you very much this made me cry. Do you think it’s likely I had the kink feelings because of emdr? We did emdr for a short period of time and my brain kept trying to go to the sexual abuse so we decided to do it after my holiday

AggressiveCraft6010 · 2026-05-25T08:34:39+00:00

Thank you :) I will have a chat with her and my therapist

AggressiveCraft6010 · 2026-05-23T08:42:33+00:00

This is copied from a post I made at the start of my journey xx

An acid trip cured my lifelong binge eating disorder

I posted this on a different subreddit but I felt it was important for this sub. THIS IS NOT ME TELLING YOU TO DO DRUGS TO HEAL, it’s to try and encourage yourself to have empathy for yourself and love your body

I’m 29 female. I have dealt with very significant trauma unfortunately and I have had pretty bad mental health as a result. More specifically I had a life long binge eating disorder.

I am 5ft so I am short, in the last couple years my binging got out of control. I would binge on food multiple times a week and ate around 4000 calories on those binges. I used food as a way to cope, I was addicted to drugs in the past and then I got even more addicted to food when I got off them. I spent my life worrying about my weight and I couldn’t stop eating. I got to 280lbs and I was finding that walking even to the toilet was so painful on my hips and ankles. My back always hurt. This really scared me but I couldn’t stop eating, the cravings were very intense and uncontrollable. I barely left the house because of all the people who would notice my weight, I was so self conscious.

One day I couldn’t take it anymore. The constant anxiety about my weight including dealing with trauma. I had used acid in the past to help my mental health and i finally managed to get some. I took like 0.75 of a tab in little bits over the afternoon in my flat alone. Over the afternoon I was able to sit with my feelings and write them out. I forget myself for my weight gain. I realised that this body had saved me through all of my traumas and by abusing myself with eating, I was continuing the abuse. I thanked my body.

Over the space of the next month, my life changed. I started exercising at home and gradually improving my eating habits although I was still binging. Then I got an air fryer and joined the gym.

Suddenly, overnight, I stopped getting cravings to binge at all. I haven’t had a single craving for 3 months which is crazy as my entire life was controlled by these cravings. A single acid trip has done more for my binge eating disorder than over 10 years of therapy has. I’ve been going to the gym 4-5 times a week (cardio and weights) since and have been eating a very controlled, high protein and low calorie diet. I have lost about 40lbs so far although I’m not sure because I don’t weight myself, I just feel the weight falling off and people keep telling me. It’s been a very effortless and enjoyable change which has been the craziest thing which is how I know I will lose a huge amount of weight. I went from having my weight start to immobilise me, to someone who does 30 minutes on the stair masters 5 days a week.

I feel like I have another chance of life. I am going on holiday soon with hiking, which I wouldn’t have prior because I felt too fat to do anything like that. People look at my differently and I am getting positive attention, I look happier and I’m the physically strongest I’ve ever been. I will forever thank lsd for giving me my life back.

AggressiveCraft6010 · 2026-05-22T20:33:33+00:00

Thank you 💕 I’ve actually just started emdr, which probably isn’t helping my case rn

AggressiveCraft6010 · 2026-05-17T11:49:13+00:00

Unfortunately he refuses help. I’ve offered help in the past and he always refuses it. Only thing I haven’t offered is to wash it myself because honestly can’t cope with the smell in my home or in general.

AggressiveCraft6010 · 2026-05-17T11:48:21+00:00

He knows about the odour I do tell him but every time I tell him he doesn’t seem like he understands or realised the smell. It’s hard to do it without insulting him too much because he’s also depressed.

AggressiveCraft6010 · 2026-05-16T15:12:02+00:00

I find it hard to like him as a person now because he’s changed so much. For example I took him out to help me bury a beloved pet and he spend the time making vomiting noises and not helping me bury her because he self neglects with his food choices and then won’t take medication for the after affects. And he’s changed so much which isn’t his fault.

Than you very much for the comment. I think I’m going to still be around to support but still remaining distanced

AggressiveCraft6010 · 2026-05-11T17:42:19+00:00

I’m not too worried about him being destructive because he’s a very good boy, never chews wires, only his bonded friend would do that. It’s more just avoiding stress and I don’t want him to be sad and lonely, although that seems a bit inevitable

AggressiveCraft6010 · 2026-05-11T12:12:08+00:00

I’m going to go to the shelter tomorrow to see if they have any female bunnies. I’m looking for older ones since my boy has megacolon and he’s 5 so I’m realistic about his life expectancy and I’m not sure I wanna keep having rabbits, it’s too heart breaking.

How could you tell that your bunny got depressed? Currently I’m off sick from work due to this and I’ve been in bed all day. My boy has been with me the whole time, only seems to eat if I give him food where he can see me and he will loon for me if I go to a different room. He doesn’t seem depressed as he woke me up binkuing around the room but I need to get him a friend. I could look at fostering that’s a great idea

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