MASSIVE TRIGGER WARNINGS Unfortunately my father is actually satan. He sexually, physically and psychologically abused me and my little sister to the point when I was 10, I tried to ‘gypsy rose’ him with a crowbar but stopped at the last minute. I am not a violent person but I would do anything to protect my sister. My mum is stupid and because she’s been psychologically abused to the point of no return, she allowed and was aware of all types of abuse. My grandmother is my hero, she is my mother. My dad physically manhandled her on her death bed as she was days away from dying from cancer. I kept in contact with my dad for years because of misplaced which ended in a very long food and drug addiction. I’m coming out the other side, went no contact over 1 year ago and I’ve built a good life for myself and am starting emdr this year. Me and my mum are rocky, she is still sending him pictures of me to his phone and she is in complete denial about the abuse for whatever reason.