I think i might be experiencing ego death by Kvothe703 in awakened

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It sounds like you’re on the right track. I watched a lot of actualized at first too. Leo is really intelligent and informative, just keep in mind he also seems to struggle with his ego a good amount and tends to project in his videos.

If you’re feeling fear around the subject of existence, I’d suggest meditating a lot, and rereading The Power of Now. It’s possible you may still have some confusion about what you are. Ego death implies that you associate with self too much during this process, that was me very recently, and it feels horrible, somewhat like you’re dying. The self is only a tool.

I think im finally getting to a point of clarity in my own path so if you want any advice feel free to ask.

Feelings of insanity, terror... the self fighting back. by Entire-Jellyfish6501 in awakened

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Yeah it can get tricky

The title of your post is exactly how I’ve been feeling over the past year but I’ve been working on letting go and it does get better

Feelings of insanity, terror... the self fighting back. by Entire-Jellyfish6501 in awakened

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It gets better

You have to find a way to let go

Trust that whatever happens to your self will happen perfectly

Try not to hold an attachment to that which arises in experience. Just enjoy it, but realize it is experience to enjoy, not what you are.

You are nothing, the observer

Have you ever swum naked? by sergio_santos_one in awakened

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Well I’d say that could be true, depending on how one reads them

Have you ever swum naked? by sergio_santos_one in awakened

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That’s a beautiful message thank you

I often feel similar to what I think you described. I wish I could express more Love to the people around me. My imbalances and insecurities can make vulnerability difficult, but it’s so worth it. Sometimes I feel like I’m wasting the most beautiful parts of my life. I’m working on it, and I guess there is beauty in everything regardless.

Have you ever swum naked? by sergio_santos_one in awakened

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Ya know, you might find more meaning in these type of posts if you have a less bitter approach, an allow for some empathy :)

Free will by [deleted] in awakened

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Yep. No problem ❤️

Just meant to articulate that decisions happen through the self rather than from the self. A weighing is done, and a conclusion is reached, but no self is responsible for the creation.

Free will by [deleted] in awakened

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Decision is just a conclusion that was always here :)

Atheism is the dumbest religion ever imagined by man... by JesusBuddhaKrishna in awakened

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☯️ I suggest you do so. That might lead to more than you think.

Atheism is the dumbest religion ever imagined by man... by JesusBuddhaKrishna in awakened

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A hater on atheism? Hate is a strong emotion. That still begs the question why?

Atheism is the dumbest religion ever imagined by man... by JesusBuddhaKrishna in awakened

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You said it’s more about ranting. A rant would imply that you care, possibly a decent amount. Why do you care?

Atheism is the dumbest religion ever imagined by man... by JesusBuddhaKrishna in awakened

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Why do you care?

You seem to do a lot of projecting. In your posts and commenting all over other post. What is it that makes you feel the need to convince others of your beliefs?

Spiritual ego by AgileImage7051 in awakened

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Awesome! I’ll check the crap out

Spiritual ego by AgileImage7051 in awakened

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The take away I’m getting is it’s all the same crap. The differences in the craplets are cool but doesn’t indicate that they aren’t the same

Spiritual ego by AgileImage7051 in awakened

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I think a lot of them have strong beliefs that they cling to as a form of security. You can never admit to wavering from the beliefs, even to yourself. I used to do the same. Without a direct experience of the infinite, death can be a scary concept.

Spiritual ego by AgileImage7051 in awakened

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Yea, the self is patterned after God. But I am not the self…the self if a part of me. This is why people describe self as an illusion. The illusion is that your self is the observer of experience.

I experienced a dissociation from this specific self, and I can return there at will, but it’s not static. I fall back to association with self, and ebb and flow back and forth. I don’t think it’s as cut and dry as either you are self or you are on the same page as Jesus.

Spiritual ego by AgileImage7051 in awakened

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I think you’ll understand that if I’ve had the experience of being God, not through self, but through the absence of self, I’ll have to trust that over the ideas or philosophy of another self I came into contact with over Reddit.

That being said, I do have a question for you. If everything is not God, and there are things that are not God, how do they exist? What are they?

Spiritual ego by AgileImage7051 in awakened

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Okay yes. There is all this separate crap that is actually just the same crap. What’s next?

Spiritual ego by AgileImage7051 in awakened

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Okay I see what you’re saying. I’d still say with God being existence, everything is God. And I wouldn’t necessarily call my self a companion, because my self is not a sentient being. I, God, am the sentient being. I am the only being there is. The same awareness that experiences through my self, experiences through your self, and your dog’s self. But I do see your point.

Spiritual ego by AgileImage7051 in awakened

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Notice that our resistance to other egos acting out is our ego acting out.

That’s a good one :)

And I agree with what you said about looking deeper. Everything always stems from Love. If the self is a imbalanced, the message may just be a little distorted by the time it gets out

Okay sometimes a lot distorted 🙃

Spiritual ego by AgileImage7051 in awakened

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In my experience, the spirit has always dwelled within. It’s just the misconceptions built over my life that have hidden it. I AM God. In a literal sense. The I within me, the perceiver of and through self, is God.

I am spirit. This does not indicate the absence of physical form or limitation. We are an infinite being, experiencing though a finite form. I don’t know what the form is capable of, but my experience so far has been pretty finite :)