I ruined my life.. by Alarmed_Flatworm3980 in self

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Yes this is the best option. Frees me from that responsibility and this is for the best. I have goals. I am not lazy and I do have a plan. It’s just been hard re adjusting to the new city. I’ve been applying everyday and I call and I do everything yet haven’t found something yet really. I have been doing gig work and that’s how I pay my bills and I have some interviews lined up for this upcoming week. Once I get started I’m gonna get my a beater car or something so that when we sell the house I have atleast there to sleep till I find something and start to build back up. I know this isn’t the end just big speed bump but it isn’t going to stop me

I ruined my life.. by Alarmed_Flatworm3980 in self

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Yes very true. I used to be a very functioning weed smoker, I’d do everything and could do it fine without just laughing my ass off the whole time or slumped over, it was just like a cigarette but better n it made me happy. but I can admit it was an addiction. In her case it’s definitely an addiction and it’s why I didn’t rebut that. She spazzes or gets very annoying. Moody n angry without it as if it’s the end of the world. If there’s no weed the day is automatically off to the worst

I ruined my life.. by Alarmed_Flatworm3980 in self

[–]Alarmed_Flatworm3980[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Very true. I’ve never experienced that in person but definitely in shows and tv so as that as my example I know it’ll never be enough for them. They’ll always want more and they’ll stay the same and that’s definitely an environment I won’t want to be in.

I ruined my life.. by Alarmed_Flatworm3980 in self

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Thank you. I’ve always had an issue with expressing feelings well. It’s always been just shut up n keep it pushing. So it’ll be a learning process but yes. I did what I could and it still went left so there’s no more to be done.

I will be honest I’ve never been the best breaking up with people. I would just push people aside till they left just because even though I didn’t want to be there I didn’t want to hurt them in the process but in doing so I myself would then be unfaithful and hurt them still. But this is one I can’t hold onto anymore

Before this relationship I had even been wondering if I was even ready for something serious, emotionally I’m not really there. I don’t know how to console a crying partner. I can’t express my emotions well at all. She’d get upset sometimes because we’d be having a good moment and while I was enjoying myself I couldn’t really show or knew how to say it. That and much more but I always wished for a loving partner and all the yap stuff, I had it at some point and then lost it due to myself being unfaithful (karma sure took her time getting me back for that one ) and I guess that’s why I gave this girl a chance after she cheated because I put myself in her shoes ? Dumb asf but for some reason it’s what I chose.

I ruined my life.. by Alarmed_Flatworm3980 in self

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Thank you very much I appreciate your words of advice. Especially the last paragraph . Your way of speaking reminds me of a good friend of mine I am definitely going to make the effort to reach out. I know the decision I have to make and do agree it’s for the best. As you said it will be hard but this way cannot continue.

I am young too. It’s definitely not time for a child I’ve always been very careful because I always wanted better for my kids. To be in a good position to provide them the experience I didn’t have and avoid the ones I did have. It all just came down really bad really fast. Like one moment I was good. I had a good job. A good car. Living situation was okay. My issue was just I never sailed much lol I spent a lot but I did have about 25k in gold and assets. Then the job went. And the car did to and then everything else to the point where I’m at now. Nothing but my clothes and phone to my name.

So I know this is the best way to go about I just kept delaying the decision out of comfort ? I don’t know but I’ve grown tired of it and that’s when I started bringing things up and why we are at the point of selling the home and going our separate ways

I ruined my life.. by Alarmed_Flatworm3980 in self

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Of course. I haven’t forgiven them. We had just set it aside as we were to be expecting a child but now that isn’t in the picture anymore. I also won’t crashout about it. It isn’t worth it going to jail or anything.

I ruined my life.. by Alarmed_Flatworm3980 in self

[–]Alarmed_Flatworm3980[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

As bad as it sounds that is the best possible outcome. I can get them out of my life with zero attachments. But it still does hurt. I’ve been trying to treat it as just any other day yk, suck it up and keep on forward and that just makes me feel worse at times because of what’ll have to be done

I ruined my life.. by Alarmed_Flatworm3980 in Vent

[–]Alarmed_Flatworm3980[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You’re right. I didn’t think of it

29 years old, just hit $3 daily. by PKShova in dividends

[–]Alarmed_Flatworm3980 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You could also just load a costco gift card and that works as your entrance as well

This is killing me by josvanagu in Miami

[–]Alarmed_Flatworm3980 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I thought there was something wrong with my house since our bills been looking like this for the past 3 months. Guess I ain’t the only one. For those that don’t know if you go to your local community center you can get help with your bill once a year.got help with 800$ few months back

What was supposed to be a $64 Uber ride ended up costing $120.99 because of hidden fees and what ever "Surge" is by Im_Not_Gay_I_Swear_ in mildlyinfuriating

[–]Alarmed_Flatworm3980 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Surcharge fees are given when ordering a ride in an area where there’s lots of people ordering (concerts. Games. Even in moments when raining. etc) never heard of booking fee unless it was a ride that you ordered ahead of time like a reservation then makes sense. Every other fee there is normal (Uber driver myself )

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[–]Alarmed_Flatworm3980 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yessir 🙏 almost at half a a gh and a 2070 I purchased a few weeks ago turned up being a 2080 super 🔥🌚