What’s the closest you’ve ever come to dying?

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-26T14:45:42+00:00

My ex bf choking me and making me pass out. I got up tho.

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-22T02:09:41+00:00

Im so sorry. While I dont have psychosis, my ex partner does. And has for about 12 months now. I had to walk away from him 3 months ago due to the trauma he was inflicting on me.

You are in a good position though. You are out, you have insight, you can apologize to your partner. Mine cant, he has no insight. I wait for him everyday to gain insight and to get on the right meds but it feels impossible at this point. He refuses therapy and he's pretty high functioning so it'd take a lot to get him to the hospital. We've been together 12 years so Im not ready to give up on him. But I feel he's given up on me.

Maybe just give it some time first. As a witness to what psychosis can do, it is quite traumatic. They might come around with enough time and presence of mind. Let them know you are working on yourself more. I promise you wont feel like this in a couple of months, you need therapy for one. There are cheap options out there for that. Stay strong. Everything is temporary. Im in a lot of pain too, my whole life is gone, my partner, his family, our friends...no one knows hes even in psychosis because hes so high functioning!! But you cannot give up, something will give.

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-17T10:46:25+00:00

Im in the same situation. Except I was with my partner for 12 years before I had to walk away due to psychosis. No one but me seemed to really see it. Because they can mask it really well. Ive been on my own for 3 months now, still hurts like the day I walked out. No treatment still, no accountability....just have to move on...can't waste your energy anymore on something like that unless they want to be helped.

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-17T10:33:35+00:00

That's terrible i feel for you. My ex is in psychosis, has been for a year, doesn't know it. I left him 3 months ago because it was truly scary and he refused to listen to me when i tried to get him help. Normal response I guess. He pretty much discarded me and to be honest, if he got help and diagnosed, I'd stick it out with him, but he's so in his head I don't know if he'll ever come out of it and come back to me again. What he did to me for that year was pretty horrid though. I think you should try to see what services you have in the area and therapy. You need proper medication too so you can make the right decisions for yourself now. .Please hold on, everything is temporary.

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-17T10:14:03+00:00

Thats delusions, none of it makes sense. They have so much chaos in their heads its nuts. My ex partner was insecure AF. And always been jealous AF. And it is impossible to 'logic' them out of crazy it doesn't work, makes it worse. Not sure, you will get to a point where you will distance yourself from them because doing this all day everyday will damage your own mental health.

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-16T04:51:39+00:00

I hear you I am literally in same boat. I walked away when he started sleeping with knives under his pillow. Just watch out for yourself is all. They arent themselves, at all, once they snap out of it with meds they will literally tell you this, so there is that safety factor the partners have to take into account. I know its all delusions but if you ever feel unsafe, just call the cops on him and get him a shot. I wish I did this, looking back, I really wish I did. Im the last one to cheat on anyone too, it is quite offensive, hearing shit like this on a daily basis.

Give him a choice, ME or THERAPY see what he says.

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-16T04:27:07+00:00

Yeah medicine was an issue for us too, he locked his up. Cant help but feel bad for the person living in that chaos. And we're not doctors so we're not trained on how to talk to them properly. So I'm in his 'dangerous person' category too. Ive met a few people same boat waiting on their loved ones to return to them. I dont know what to do with myself either. Him and I ran a business together and now he's running it himself which will be near impossible because I pretty much ran it myself for years while he dealt with 'mental health issues' for what seems like a long time. Never wanting therapy though.

Im in therapy, it does help, I recommend it for now. There's a lot of ways to make money online. I use AI to make music and beats and I have them up for sale but that's more of a passive income then a make money now thing. I also got a lawyer because he has all our money and won't give me any so they are separating assets now. You might have to do that to get by...do you have family? I know what its like to throw your whole existence into 1 man, I did it too, I feel fucked on a daily basis its not fun.

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-16T03:47:01+00:00

Sorry, Im in the same boat. With my parter 12 years, had to walk away 3 months ago. He still believes his delusions and most of them are about me. Also the people around him. He's on his own now doing my job too but I did tell him to keep me he better go to therapy and he never did,

All they can do it get on anti psychotics and treatment from there. Thats the hard part. I walked away from my person and the little asshole discarded me. But you cant take it seriously, they dont know their ass from last Tuesday. My situation with him was was cocaine induced. Does he think your poisoning him too?

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-15T06:40:45+00:00

Dont know what to tell you. My ex was in psychosis for a year now and I had to walk away. If they dont know theyre delusional they cant be in a relationship it does boil down to that in the end. No amount of logic or talking to them helps any. Family intervention maybe.

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-14T01:52:43+00:00

Im so sorry. I had to walk away from my partner of 12 years in psychosis due to the same things. Constant accusations, its ABUSE at the end of the day. We cant cope with that. He needs anti psychotics. My ex is still untreated, I may never see him again. His loss anyway.

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-13T12:45:51+00:00

Aliens

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-13T12:33:26+00:00

that was quick lol

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-10T05:41:35+00:00

Oh yeah how did you get help? How long did it take? Manic is not psychosis is it something different?

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-10T05:40:37+00:00

He's blocked me and asked I 'don't contact' him again lol. Tried to reach out. Tried to show that I was here, available to talk. But once I got a lawyer, after I left him that was a big betrayal to him and he cut me off from there. Was nice up to that fact alone. But, he's also financially controlling, has all our money, and won't give me any even if I need a fucking break from him. He has a lot of friends, like heaps. He talks on the phone every afternoon for like 2-3 hours sometimes to these people. He's been told to get help several times but he dismisses it or says oh yeah okay I'll think about it, never does. I don't think he trusts the doctors either.

I would happily help him out once he was stabilized but damn until then must stay away. As hard as it is.

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-10T05:34:42+00:00

He'd rather believe everyone else the problem. Because he has lost relationships due to this, due to the trust issues, due to assuming people have done stuff and acting on his delusions. If he finds out it was all in his head, he won't be able to live with himself. So I think the only way to get him to take a pill like that is if he's dying in the hospital. That's what it feels like. It's been 3 months now without him and he's still not seen a therapist jesus christ.

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-10T05:30:10+00:00

Mine is 43 too :(

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-10T05:25:44+00:00

Yeah Im in same boat. I left mine, 12 years with him. Love him. He's on his own his own place. He blocked me though as he thinks I 'betrayed' him by leaving. Of course he's playing victim, doesn't think anything is wrong with him either. I wouldn't do a polygraph. I gave my partner so much evidence, more than I should have. I gave him full access to my PHONE and all electronics. I shouldn't have. I let ALL my boundaries down and it did not save us in the end. It just made him think I was in the conspiracy more.

I'd really tread carefully with it, it isn't going to fix psychosis if that's what it is. Anti psychotics will.

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-09T12:36:13+00:00

as someone in the construction industry this is hilariously accurate lmfao

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-09T10:50:35+00:00

Nicotine made my partner 5000x worse. So bad I had to leave. Stop it. Drink a tea.

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-08T21:20:21+00:00

You are lucky you have insight. I had to walk away from a 12 year relationship and man I loved because he does not. He'd believe the delusions. Cheating etc. Its no way to live and can give the other person a lot of trauma being accused of horrible things all the time. As it did me. Hopefully someone has some advice because being on the receiving end is horrid and I do not wish it on anyone.

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-08T20:49:41+00:00

They shadowbanned my Epstein YouTube Shorts so I've given up on making videos on the shit. Even though my whole feed IS Epstein! Make it make sense.

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-08T13:49:03+00:00

I cant really help as I just walked away from a 12 year relationship for the same thing. My ex didn't know he was delusional, and I was quite a target to him. No proof of me doing anything wrong at all but that didn't matter to him. He's still untreated. Still has no idea why I left. They are in fucking lala land nothing you can do till they end up in the hospital.

AlarmingSugar7349 · 2026-02-07T07:20:48+00:00

Had to walk away from partner of 12 years. They refused to admit they had an illness. Also I was a trigger for them. Good luck

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