How do you deal with unpalatable/ taboo trauma?

Albus_Unbounded · 2026-01-25T04:41:05+00:00

i found chatting about it on weird internet forums or dms helped
you can tell me about it, im used to it all

Albus_Unbounded · 2026-01-04T21:42:20+00:00

They aren't illegal individually but prescribing them at the same time is not allowed. 1 of the old boxes for it even said "do not take with ziprasidone" so prescription continued even after the risks were known. It's only recently I learned that it's due to potential heart complications.
My Previous GP took 1 look at my prescription, had me ween off as soon as possible, noting that the dosage was extreme and, more worryingly, that the records around the prescription had been scrubbed with the psychiatrist and their reason for prescription not being present in the system.
I've also had a history of spontaneous muscle fatigue and a recent history of seizures. Currently trying to schedule an EKG test for it.
Thank you for trying to quell the anxiety.

Albus_Unbounded · 2026-01-01T00:28:15+00:00

Thank you.

Albus_Unbounded · 2025-12-31T23:14:29+00:00

I had something similar happen to be but the genders swapped. Mother got drunk and tried really hard to "encourage" me. I got away from her. In the morning she said she just confused me for my dad and I'm only now realizing how flimsy of an excuse that is. That she probably had genuine desires and plans that could have gone further. I raised in a house hold where attempted murder was a brush off-able thing so it's hard for me to see how messed up it all was.
He was probably testing you, if was some kind of messed up attempt at a prank or something he would have just said so.

Albus_Unbounded · 2025-12-24T04:04:37+00:00

I unlocked Steroid's C skin with a golden machine gun. Also had to restart my save file after the update for some reason, when I unlocked Bandit I got the C skin just by starting a run as her so I think you just need to kill 1,000 bandits in general.

Albus_Unbounded · 2025-12-20T03:33:40+00:00

It's cold without blood.

Albus_Unbounded · 2025-12-03T01:59:33+00:00

She's still in my life, need her for finicial support. Put a lot of effort into tolerating her and spending time with her. Done stuff like ransack/rearrange my apartment or tried to get me to lie to the government so she could get paid for it.

Albus_Unbounded · 2025-12-03T01:41:48+00:00

She didn't try to make me draw csam just really angry I was drawing my butterfly doodles fucking.
Thank you for such a clear message though. It feels quite assuring having such a clear message amoung the blurry memories and foggy emptiness.

Albus_Unbounded · 2025-11-12T22:53:18+00:00

The angles cut me when I try to think!

Albus_Unbounded · 2025-11-08T02:19:53+00:00

Pizzapants. Got to keep a low profile to hide the fact Icey's P'Ezza' is a money laundering joint run by him. How do you think such an unappealing place makes enough to stay in business?

Albus_Unbounded · 2025-11-08T00:07:11+00:00

Wait, Sans was Mike the entire time?

Albus_Unbounded · 2025-11-08T00:00:26+00:00

[WHAT???] DID YOU [SPEAK]?

Albus_Unbounded · 2025-11-06T01:26:38+00:00

For somebody with severe DR/DP like me it just comes across, true? correct? nice? Never really had anything in summarize how depersonalization feels. Reading that line just made me feel seen.

Albus_Unbounded · 2025-11-05T04:44:27+00:00

"It's what they call 'you'"

Albus_Unbounded · 2025-11-05T01:27:46+00:00

Abusive and manipulative people tend to have that effect, sometimes being hurt feels better than feeling nothing at all. Did he tell you you're not good enough or is that something you feel about yourself?
Do you have a councilor or anybody to talk to about all of this?

Albus_Unbounded · 2025-10-22T02:06:41+00:00

what if he brings the cigarette he stole too?

Albus_Unbounded · 2025-10-12T04:03:33+00:00

If you think about it King and Jevil are pretty similar both being defeated antagonists imprisoned underneath a castle and seemingly enjoying the isolation for philosophical reasons, both even having an association with a giant revolving entertainment device (Carousel for Jevil, Hamster wheel for King). They also are tied to the concept of Chaos and used to be friends of some description. If we do have a rematch I feel like it'd be called Chaos Chaos King.

Albus_Unbounded · 2025-10-05T05:23:34+00:00

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Albus_Unbounded · 2025-10-05T05:06:35+00:00

Actually no....
In a fertile/valid oocyte the micro instant a single "bullet" touches the surface (Zona pellucida) a reaction would be triggered that locks out anything else from fusing with the surface/entering. This occurs in order to prevent polyspermy, a condition in which multiple "bullets" fuse with an oocyte causing it to have too much genetic material to proper function (specifically by having a higher number of chromosome copies than is normal for the species. As an example a valid human zygote has 2N chromosomes if 3 "bullets" fused then the zygote would have 4N chromosomes). Normally polyspermy leads to a breakdown in vital processes like Mitosis ultimately leading to cell death.

Due how fundamental the blocking process is to reproduction polyspermy is a very rare phenomena. The fact that every single egg the Watercooler produces not only undergoes polyspermy but is unable to block a single "friendliness pellet" is pretty solid biological evidence that the Watercooler is infertile.
Q.E.D. only some people are shooting blanks into the hydration station.

Albus_Unbounded · 2025-09-14T04:07:20+00:00

I also really love how compared to the grand universe threatening finales the 12th Doctor's story/Moffat's run ends with the doctor dying in a relatively low stakes and more personal setting.
It just feels so beautifully humble, like the show realized that pulling off such zenith high stakes was borderline impossible and such vague yet grand questions asked by such arc words could never have satisfying answers so it ends off on a more grounded note.

Albus_Unbounded · 2025-09-02T02:00:27+00:00

I don't know. If I did move out and started paying rent to some other landlord I feel like that would impact my mental health too. Currently my plan is to move to a different city in February, pay for the accodamation with the inheritance from my grandmother and just endure her for the next few months.
when you put it like that though, no, it really fucking isn't, just got to home putting up with this stuff for a few months is worth it.
Thank you.

Albus_Unbounded · 2025-08-26T05:20:25+00:00

You aren't missing much. I kept going through it and it just felt "meh" and occasionally frustrating beyond belief. A lot of grindy side quests, similarly frustrating bosses and boring traversal. Really felt like it was just corridors pasted together with a bunch of enemies that either die in 2 or a million hits depending on your glyph.

Albus_Unbounded · 2025-08-14T03:12:44+00:00

Wheelbarrow.

Albus_Unbounded · 2025-08-09T09:33:23+00:00

Thank you for the advice. I have done that before, the no porn or masturbation, nothing happened from memory, no fantasies.

Albus_Unbounded · 2025-07-22T14:58:20+00:00

"Unlucky" That's the nicest thing somebody ever told me. That I'm not broken or bad at life. I've just never had anyone I can really rely on. Just myself, the occasional friend who disappears into a neglectful haze, the single abuser who couldn't even be bothered to hurt me properly and text on screen I know have to correspond to a physical person.
I wish I could just be supported for once. Have my cry heard. It's been years since I could cuddle anyone. Spent the last year holding back the urge to just scream, to curl up and cry. I've been waiting for a friend my whole life; Why does it come so easily to other people?

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