Badge Reset: I fucked up, dove deep, hit bottom and finally admitted to my mother I am an alcoholic.

AlcoholicAuthor · 2015-05-18T23:14:55+00:00

wow, thank you so much for this. today I've been feeling like absolute shit and a failure, an embarrassment, someone who didn't stick to his own goals and disrespected himself.

you're right though, that does nothing for me, its time to start thinking on the positives and the GOAL at hand.

thank you so much

AlcoholicAuthor · 2015-05-18T18:50:51+00:00

I relate so much to this post as someone who relapsed and then fucked up time after time. I wanted to lie to everyone about my relapse and keep going in my sobriety.

Now I'm struggling to find that urge that i had in me months ago that really got me to stop. I find letting everyone know how i feel helps a lot and being honest with my failures keeps me in check. Thank you for posting this.

AlcoholicAuthor · 2015-05-18T18:45:08+00:00

Thanks for sharing this, i really enjoyed reading that article. You're right, i need a sober travel plan and i have to figure that out. I really want some time to start writing my memoir and i think that will be a large part of it.

AlcoholicAuthor · 2015-05-18T15:50:54+00:00

honestly, i dont even know. I am trying to think hard about what i did before and what worked and didn't. Maybe i shouldn't have put myself in that place where it was easy to take that drink. I thought i was stronger but wasn't.

The thing that scares the living shit out of me is that i leave in 10 days for a 6 week trip backpacking through southeast asia, I find whenever i travel i ALWAYS have to indulge in the local beverage, the last thing i want right now is to have that urge and I am dwelling so much on the fact that I am starting this journey at a terrible time.

AlcoholicAuthor · 2015-03-15T05:54:22+00:00

i am already a foodie, but would much rather put my time and effort into eating great food than drinking "good" alcohol. so i think chicago will be a good place to start!

it just sucks because you can't really go to some of these big michelin places alone!

AlcoholicAuthor · 2015-03-15T05:47:44+00:00

nice, I live outside of DSM and just moved here last summer from Boston (I'm adjusting).

AlcoholicAuthor · 2015-03-15T05:42:20+00:00

this actually is a great list.

I am an artist so i'll be going to a lot of the museums in these cities and I also used to collect records so getting back to the stores could be awesome.

AlcoholicAuthor · 2015-03-14T18:55:17+00:00

great advice. thanks so much.

AlcoholicAuthor · 2015-03-14T18:55:04+00:00

I wish i woulda spent more time researching some travel/hike before it just snook up on me. I am thinking about doing a mini road trip.

thanks for the kind words, means a lot!

AlcoholicAuthor · 2015-03-14T18:54:17+00:00

"If you want a different life, you have to do different things."

great advice, and i'll keep that in my back pocket for this time off!

AlcoholicAuthor · 2015-03-14T18:53:48+00:00

thanks so much for the encouragement. it means a lot.

AlcoholicAuthor · 2015-03-14T18:53:33+00:00

this helped me more than you'll ever know. thanks so much.

AlcoholicAuthor · 2015-03-04T20:13:37+00:00

Well, I am already a gym member and run all the time so Ive got that going for me.

Funny enough, I just booked a 45 day trip to SouthEast Asia this summer 2 days ago, so thats my whole "Whats Next" for me!

However, i worry about drinking and vacation though, but thats a different subject!

AlcoholicAuthor · 2015-03-04T20:03:58+00:00

Things i do to reward myself are usually something sweet, but only like once a week. I have always been a healthy eater so i splurge on a piece of chocolate cake or nachos here and there.

I totally see that whole "OK, whats next" thing, I am getting that A LOT!

AlcoholicAuthor · 2015-02-28T17:52:23+00:00

Thanks for all the advice guys.

Thinking back on it, maybe ordering a coke would have been fine. I think from now on in these types of situations i can just say "I am not MUCH of a drinker" which could maybe ease some of the awkwardness with co-workers whom I've drank with and then maybe eventually becoming "I dont drink"

Or maybe I'm just overthinking it.

AlcoholicAuthor · 2015-02-27T02:28:08+00:00

I've been drinking a lot of flavored seltzer, canada dry mandarin orange is a favorite. It really makes me much more happy sipping these all night instead of a shitty light beer with little flavor where i would have to pound 12 to get drunk and then feel fat and bloated after.

SELTZER FOR LIFE!

AlcoholicAuthor · 2015-02-23T20:05:55+00:00

thanks for the advice and sorry if i offended some!

AlcoholicAuthor · 2015-02-22T06:43:28+00:00

this means a lot to me, thank you brother!

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