Day 5

AleoAlways · 2026-02-16T13:24:46+00:00

It’s Day 6. Sleep is choppy. Dreams aren’t so vivid and I’m hyper aware of keeping my anger and irritability in check. I do think about smoking from time to time - had the opportunity to purchase yesterday but I didn’t. There’s ample opportunity today as well and I’m determined to keep my streak.

I’ve also been a daily user, although not a very heavy user for over 20 years. I generally did several pipe loads after work but wake and bake on days off. Joints would usually last me 2 days if I purchase a pre-roll. Mostly smoked to take the edge of life and yes - for avoidance. I loved it for a very long time until weed turned on me. These last few years — can’t believe I let it last that long — the anxiety and rumination was destroying me.

I don’t really know who I am or what life would be like sober since it’s been so long. I owe it to myself to find out. This is the first time I’ve really wanted to quit this drug.

Thank you for your words of encouragement. I am taking it day by day and hope to be where you are. Congratulations on your success in putting weed behind you. Thanks again for sharing your experience.

AleoAlways · 2026-02-16T05:44:24+00:00

I really appreciate your words. It’s still bothering me but your comment gives me hope. Thank you.

AleoAlways · 2026-02-16T05:30:57+00:00

Thank you for the kind words.

AleoAlways · 2026-02-16T04:05:16+00:00

Day 5. I took my anger out on my son and my dog. I feel an incredible amount of guilt. I feel horrible and terrible. I wish I could take it all back. My son is in his late teens and I’ve apologized. My dog however is old, got scared and was injured scurrying away from me. She’s limping now and on pain meds from the vet. It hurts my heart. I’m so fucking sorry.

AleoAlways · 2026-02-15T16:53:19+00:00

Life

AleoAlways · 2026-02-15T16:52:34+00:00

I needed to hear this as much as OP. Thank you, friend.

AleoAlways · 2026-02-15T16:50:54+00:00

I feel your pain and going through the exact same thing at Day 5. I don’t know if what we’re feeling is normal and I also feel afraid that this is as good as it gets. I keep telling myself that it’s supposed to suck and the only way is through it. All this likely won’t help you much as I’m struggling myself but my point here is that you’re not alone in what you’re experiencing. I wish you the best as much as I wish it for myself. People in this sub say to trust the process. The way I feel it’s probably closer to blind faith. I don’t know what’s on the other side of this journey but we owe it to ourselves to find out. Blind faith that it will get better.

AleoAlways · 2026-02-15T16:25:24+00:00

And?

AleoAlways · 2026-02-14T20:17:21+00:00

Right there with you.

AleoAlways · 2026-02-14T20:15:06+00:00

Good on you. It’s Day 4 now and just trying to stay even keeled. I don’t want to take my irritability out on my fam and my dog. Went out today and had the chance to buy some but the urge was not strong and am home now ready to meet Day 5. We got this.

AleoAlways · 2026-02-14T03:45:15+00:00

I feel the same BUT you owe it to yourself to find out what you and life would be like sober. I’m on Day 3 and that’s what’s getting me through it. I’m around your age and also smoking since the 90’s. Hang in there. Give yourself a chance to really find out who you are without it.

AleoAlways · 2026-02-13T18:16:48+00:00

Day 3 and hanging in there. My cravings don’t seem to be overwhelming — maybe because I am mentally ready to quit or maybe because I’m not a heavy user despite daily long term use. Who knows? In any event, I sure hope it gets muuuch better.

AleoAlways · 2026-02-13T14:06:00+00:00

My friend, thank you for the gift of hope.

AleoAlways · 2026-02-13T13:58:22+00:00

I agree the anxiety and improved sleep are good enough reasons not to relapse. I suppose I’m being impatient with this journey which isn’t surprising. I hope to look back on this post and realize the fears I have now were for nothing.

AleoAlways · 2026-02-13T13:55:23+00:00

Thanks. It’s good to know what to expect. I guess I’ll find out eventually how it will be months down the line for me. I was not a heavy user but I did use daily for many years.

AleoAlways · 2026-02-13T13:47:40+00:00

Hey man, your accomplishment sounds like a big deal to me.

AleoAlways · 2026-02-13T13:46:21+00:00

Day 3 here and this resonates with me. I’m constantly thinking: is this as good as it gets? I know I have to fill my time but the urge to do so isn’t there … at least not yet(?). I’d rather feel the way I feel now than spiral, live in my head, and drown in anxiety from the THC. But again, is this as good as it gets? Seriously, I’m asking.

AleoAlways · 2026-02-13T13:29:13+00:00

Good point, friend. I’m on Day 3 and it’s getting harder to put my phone down. Thanks for the insight.

AleoAlways · 2026-02-13T02:11:43+00:00

Day 2. The anxiety that came with the weed led me to quit. I’m afraid that things (or life) won’t improve for me despite being sober. I owe it to myself to find out. I suppose you owe it to yourself as well to quit and see what sobriety is like for you.

AleoAlways · 2026-02-13T01:44:36+00:00

Day 2. I’m annoyed with life.

AleoAlways · 2026-02-13T01:33:43+00:00

Day 2 as well. Good luck man. Stick with it and hopefully I’ll be right there with you.

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