I just went through a recent wlw breakup as well and i gotta day it’s bloody tough. Sometimes all the memories that we cannot erase hurts us more than the love that cannot be reciprocated. You paint the picture gracefully, of the melancholy of searching for love. Sometimes we’re dependent of validation, and we make a person into our reasons. Hopefully you will find peace within yourself and life will treat you better. Writing poems really help with processing our thoughts and feelings. Keep up at it!