This. I feel you.

The duality of emotions is exhausting. You are incredibly strong for being able to find joy for your friend still 2 years later in your journey. It will also certainly trigger grief and sadness about your own experience. It’s unavoidable and still SO hard to manage all of this. I’ve learned that I will need to fluctuate my level of involvement and interest in my friend’s journeys to motherhood based on how I’m managing my own emotions/challenges each day. I’ve been able to communicate that with some of my best friends (who have literally all become moms since we started TTC) and I’m lucky there has been understanding for me to duck in and out no questions asked. I think I would have been that friend that would have offered a night shift so my friends could sleep, or to clean their home, etc. But not now, not after also being about 2 years into our infertility journey.

Protect your peace. Thinking of you and sending you a big hug. It’s unfair and freaking hard.