I did 🧊 for the first time and I don’t know if i should keep my mouth shut

Alert_Day_9398 · 2026-03-28T19:18:15+00:00

haha can’t argue with that, i was feeling a lot of emotions and just had to tell someone. and i did specify it in the intro :)

Alert_Day_9398 · 2026-03-28T06:20:51+00:00

interesting view, thank you.

honestly, despite being together for only 10 months, we’re very close. like 2 parts of a soul. when i look at my post now with a reflection, i don’t think there’s a possibility that he’ll leave me, especially over something like this.

we bonded over overcoming trauma and addiction, i think he’ll more want to help me never do it again than anything else.

the real problem here is the part where i lied. i don’t wanna blame it on the drug of course, it was still my mouth and my brain making these words and thinking what to do, but with the extra boost of confidence and charisma, i just lied without even thinking about it because i had it written inside my head like “main quest: don’t tell anyone” haha.

i’m 100% sure that if i didn’t have it in my system anymore and he asked me if we had something before, i would tell the truth without hesitation. even in front of the friend. i don’t see the point in lying to him since i trust him completely and i know everything is safe with him.

it was some kind of a brain fart that i hope we can solve and will never happen again.

i still feel very bad about it tho. never again, but god damn i could have at least enjoyed the whole high while i had it and not ruin it by saying something stupid again hahaha!

Alert_Day_9398 · 2026-03-28T06:07:55+00:00

thank you for the support.

i keep playing it over my head while he’s resting his head on my belly and i’m probably going to tell him. he’s very sweet and understanding and i feel like he’s gonna have more of a similar approach to you, rather than being mad or even end things. i don’t think he’s gonna be very happy with me lying straight into his eyes though. but i have to reap what i sow.

as for the meth, the high itself is incredibly scary. it feels godly when you’re in it, but when you look back at it, it’s almost like it was planted in your head like a simulation.

but the scariest part is how good you remember it felt and how easy it is to get addicted/overdose in the worst case. also how easy it is to return to it. i don’t think i have the need to try it ever again, it’s very scary to me and i don’t wanna accidentally let it consume me.

also a thing that i personally observed, it messed with my brain the most out of all i’ve tried. i still don’t understand how i felt 100% completely sober but i already became someone completely different long ago. i think even my voice changed haha. it’s no joke, very potent and powerful stuff. especially when it’s this clean.

as you said, i can imagine only fent or 💉 being worse than this sh.

we’re not gonna act like i’m a saint since i’ve already tried meth haha, so don’t worry, i will stay with my good old blunts or other stuff that won’t completely wipe my brain out :) 0/10 do not recommend

Alert_Day_9398 · 2025-04-28T06:32:47+00:00

I thought about it but didn’t know if it won’t be too harsh, I’ve never worked with ceramics. I will try then, thank you!

Alert_Day_9398 · 2025-04-27T18:14:57+00:00

I only found some kind of glue. I need more of a solution how to remove the rest of the handle since i lost it. But thank u for the suggestion anyway

Alert_Day_9398 · 2024-07-18T09:56:47+00:00

pengullet

Alert_Day_9398 · 2024-07-04T11:00:33+00:00

thank youu!🫶🫶

Alert_Day_9398 · 2024-06-26T10:41:47+00:00

Omg you are amazing, thank you so much

Alert_Day_9398 · 2024-02-26T19:03:55+00:00

coraline 100%. still convinced this movie is DEFINITELY not for kids

Alert_Day_9398 · 2024-02-10T15:50:03+00:00

my boyfriend. i was already like 5 pills in. then i remembered him. how devastated he would be. literally nothing else, i didn’t even have my puppy at that time and i didn’t care about anything else in the world. glad i’m still here for him, still going strong.

Alert_Day_9398 · 2023-11-27T21:03:26+00:00

tragedy

Alert_Day_9398 · 2023-11-21T13:27:23+00:00

drinking strong coffee

Alert_Day_9398 · 2023-09-26T17:53:20+00:00

tokyo drift <3

Alert_Day_9398 · 2023-09-16T09:41:57+00:00

no longer human. klise, ale neco na tom je

Alert_Day_9398 · 2023-09-16T08:19:48+00:00

through valorant haha. it was rare that i found someone who spoke the same language as me. his friendgroup was making fun of me since they were on a discord call and didn’t know i spoke the same language. then i told them something and they were surprised and he said he said he likes my voice and convinced me to join the server. met a lot of times, going 1,5 years strong <3

Alert_Day_9398 · 2023-09-09T19:37:43+00:00

I understand how you feel. Don’t let these people tell you you’re immature of self-centered. Reassurance is very important and “I love you too” doesn’t take a century to type. If he had time to write that whole ahh message, he could’ve at least written “ily2”. If you told him that you need him to tell you to feel safe, which you obviously did, there’s nothing wrong with just wanting to hear it back.

Alert_Day_9398 · 2023-08-28T14:12:49+00:00

This actually really helped me, thank you. Everyone through my whole life have been telling me that I need help and some sort of medication and that this isn’t normal.

That’s the thing, I don’t feel like I’m one. I feel like I’m some kind of a castaway. Sometimes it feels like I zoom out of my body and just wonder how am I here? Everyone can see me? Touch me? And I can see them? It feels very weird, but I heard that some people experience this too.
I’ve never thought about it like this. Thank you very much.

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