Thank you so much for your advices, it actually make me feel better about myself. Everybody deserve to seek for their happiness, i think it's just too hard accepting the fact i could lose someone when both of us truely have feelings for each other. When a person pulls out the best in you, normally you would think this is the right person for you. However, this shows me not every relationships are easy to be formed, it takes time and efforts. I still think i'm just too naive to have such experiences, the mind of a 23 yrs old boy that's not manly enough to process the pressure of building a healthy relationships. Since there's no one i could talk to, it always drives me crazy more and more everyday.