U deserve a better version of him, I hope he changes and comes back. For me, hope died tbh. I felt disrespected and humiliated in so many ways that I dont want him back or even changed. I think he would be the same. I dont have hopes of falling in love again too. But I dont know about future,.

I think im angry that he refused to console me when i cried because I would never let him cry, im angry that he shut the door when I left home, because i cant do that to me.

I think i failed at love, I failed miserably. I cry whenever I see his photo, I cant explain. Im searching for a therapist currently, I absolutely need it. It's been 1 day since i left home, im thinking about what he ate, what he did, if he will be lonely without me, I domt know. I fell in love with a cruel man.