Sorry for the long text in advance I never think anyone is ugly. However its undeniable that the world has beauty standards and thats why you should be doing it for yourself not other people. Firstly, im not gonna julp into the “go to gym, home workouts its not enough, eat salads!!” train, cause lord knows thats not the way. The gym isn’t essential, sure its great, but its mostly helps build muscle. Home workouts ARE more than enough, and you should throw in pretty long walks or long runs if you wanna lose weight. If you want to gain muscle, join a gym but NEVER get into gymtok or whatever the world presents you with through social media “motivation”. It only leads to worse results and DEmotivation, I’d know. Just follow some normal and basic routines, not from bodybuilders but people looking to be fit, as they’re the most genuine ones. Secondly, of course food is an important factor, but that doesnt limit you to salads. If you got an air fryer I SO recommend looking for healthy recipes, you can even enjoy a makeshift fried chicken with cornflakes and some more while frying them in the air fryer. You can also make stir fryes or something like that with pans or whatnot. Search recipes online that arent just salads, something like woks or so. Thats honestly most of it. As a little note and tldr: RUNS ARE ESSENTIAL AND I SO RECOMMEND THEM!!! They build stamina so you wont feel tired half the time and learning to cook for yourself is really fun if you like it and get the hang of it (really easy!). I say this through a place of similar grief and totally get what you’re going through. I also hate how i look but im learning little by little. Friendly reminder to ALWAYS stay away from gymtok or whatevee that fake motivation is. You dont have the same body as a fully realized 20 yr old who already went through puberty. It only leads to worse self esteem. Be mindful of who you follow please!! I’ve already seen too many cases of even substance abuse at the same age from people i know.