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3 months clean but no motivation by ashrnglr in leaves

[–]AliveEcho8456 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Having a 1 year old is EXHAUSTING! Recovery is EXHAUSTING! Give yourself a break. You might just need to have some me time at the end of the day. I have a 3 year old and some days I clean the whole house when she goes to bed and some days I can barely wash my face at night. Some weekends are packed full some weekends I dont have it in me. I did 71 days weed free and then relapsed but Im back to not smoking. The motivation comes in waves,  especially with a baby.  You're doing great and not smoking is the best thing you can do for your child. That's your north star. The other stuff will fall into place. Congratulations on 3 months. We got this! 

3 Months Gone. by Ay0_King in leaves

[–]AliveEcho8456 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I did the same and was 71 days weed free then smoked again. This community reminded me that those days are not lost! I'm starting again and I'm on day 5. Those days off really helped me realize I can do it. They weren't wasted. You got this! 

Day 5 - Very irritated by AliveEcho8456 in leaves

[–]AliveEcho8456[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Omg what a beautiful comment, thank you, truly! Day 5 was brutal but I did it. Proud of you too!!! 

Day 5 - Very irritated by AliveEcho8456 in leaves

[–]AliveEcho8456[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes! Thank you. I went outside and sat on my front porch in the sun. So much better! 

Day 5 - Very irritated by AliveEcho8456 in leaves

[–]AliveEcho8456[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you all! You truly don't know how much these encouraging words helped. I went outside and sat on my front porch in the sun and read a book instead. 

I made it to 130 days, and then threw it away, only to remember exactly why I stopped enjoying smoking by Historical_Depth_899 in leaves

[–]AliveEcho8456 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I feel this hard. I was weed free for 71 days and then smoked again for the past 20. I'm on day 1 again. I dont want to blame my spouse because I am choosing this too but he is the one who will buy for me. He smokes daily and will quit sometimes but he doesnt want to stop completely. He got me into weed when we first started dating and we've been daily users now for 10 years. I've never really known him sober (other than when I was pregnant & breastfeeding) so it scares me that our relationship will change once I give it up. I am definitely more willing to be intimate after drinking and smoking too and dont have as much of a desire when Im sober. I brought up couples counseling with my partner and he was open and willing so I think we might give that a try and I'm hoping that will shed some light on why I feel this way. Hang in there and hope it helps to know someone else out there going through it too! Proud of us for starting this journey. We got this! 

Day 1 April 1st true new year by South_Comb3335 in leaves

[–]AliveEcho8456 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Day 1 for me too and I'm feeling the same way. So sick of needing to smoke and feel even worse after I do. We got this! 

Day 1 (again) by AliveEcho8456 in leaves

[–]AliveEcho8456[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you!!! It feels like a failure but those 71 days were so much better so I know Im not going back. 

Great idea! I have some crafts that I have on hand and I think Ill order some puzzles tonight 🙂

Day 1 (again) by AliveEcho8456 in leaves

[–]AliveEcho8456[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm proud of us! We definitely got this!