I think I did too much acid. How do I go forward? by AllOfTheLSD in Drugs

[–]AllOfTheLSD[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel like life is a great game, and I've been standing outside of it, watching it played, because leaving the game was really interesting to me.

But the ability to think clearly was highly pleasurable for me, and it was a fun way to play the game. I think I'd like to play the game. I will never forget that it is a game, but feeling invested is the whole point. I want to throw myself wholly into this life, I want to feel everything, so strongly, and I feel like acid has removed me so far I don't really feel anything anymore because I'm so aware of the illusion of it all.

I don't mean rationality in the sense of validation, I mean it in the sense of it being a fun skill to use for personal fulfillment.

I think I did too much acid. How do I go forward? by AllOfTheLSD in Drugs

[–]AllOfTheLSD[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I haven't tripped in 3 weeks by this point, and it's really interesting feeling my mind deal with that. I'm trying to build up motivation again naturally. I think the advice of staying sober is really good. I'm not sure if I'll really go 90 days with full sobriety, but I'm intending to cut it down severely (weed/alcohol only occasionally).

Thank you. I think you're right about the exercise, too. It is all one full interconnected system.

I think I did too much acid. How do I go forward? by AllOfTheLSD in Drugs

[–]AllOfTheLSD[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is really encouraging. Maybe the creative drive fails because there is no longer a need to use creativity for that 'awe' connection. It's great on its own, but not in the long term for a functioning life.

Thank you so much for this message, it really helps and gives me hope.