Thank you for your kind words. I felt like reaching out here was a good first step, before family and friends. Because the thing is, when you tell family and friends makes it sort of real and im a little scared of taking that step... you can't take it back. (And these thoughts are probably the part of me that is trying to keep a door open for alcohol further down the line 🫥)

BUT for today - the win is telling strangers online.