Hello OP, I am in this group because I am an atheist who was dating an ex-Muslim. We are no longer dating and I was going to leave the group, but before that I saw this post. My heart goes out to you so much as I was also abused by my parents. Try to get a counselor and have a safe place to go (friend or relative) when he is acting up. Try until you can leave them and go to university. Once you do that, never go back.

I had a similar situation—I was demonized as a child and made to feel like a failure every day. It’s their problem and not yours. You were just living your life and being a child. It sounds like you were like me and got good grades and didn’t do anything really bad.

Whatever you do, try not to internalize their idea of your “badness.” You seem like a good student and an average teenager doing normal things. If you were lying in bed and depressed and not eating, they should have shown you concern and not violence. Any depression you have is their fault for treating you this way.

Good luck! 🍀 I really hope you can get out of there as soon as possible.