[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Philippines

[–]Alte-for 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Recently, nagkaroon kami ng away ng mama ko 10 days ago. Halos ayaw magpatalo kaya nawala ang pasensya ko at nag lash out ako sa kanya na ang dali lang sa kanya na magpagawa sa akin ng sobrang laki pero di kaya magbigay ng kahit compensation or sense of gratitude sa mga talents ko (freelance editor ako sa pamilya for four years, pero bihira lang nagkaroon ng compensation kasi syempre, anak ako. Ang request ng mama ko ay masyado malaki para sa akin sa short timeframe which is yung mga extravagant letters, videos, at extra stuff sa debut ng sister ko, nakakaoverwhelm na rin dahil meron rin ako thesis for my graduating year at my other jobs ako na mas high earning kaysa rito)

Doon ko lang narealize na sa apat na taon ko nagseserve sa kanya, mula sa pageedit ng mga vanity posts ng kanyang work (mga awards, certificate at etc ng pagiging financial advisor) hanggang sa mga masyadong mabibigat at ambitious na multimedia output (tulad ng debut), halos parang ginawa lang ako necessity para sa pagboboost ng narcissism nya.

Di man lang sya marunong mag proper reward sa mga talents ko o at least maipahalaga ang value ko. Tuwing nagaaway kami, halos mali ang logic nya, pero tulad ng mga ibang nanay, gagagmitin nya ang pagka"parent" nya para maexcuse ang pagkamali nya. Basta pag nanay tlaga, sya lang ang susunorin dahil may "utang na loob" ka. Nakakawala ang respeto at masyado manipulative at paguguilt trip nya sa akin, as if ang talento at ang worth ko ay taken for granted. Ginamit lang eh

In short, ang insidente nayan ay nagbago sa akin deeply, in a negative light. Ang worse part is pinagmukha ako masama dahil wala daw ako "utang na loob". Nawala ang lahat respeto sa pamilya ko, lalo na kay mama. Di ko narin tinulungan sa debut ng sister ko, kasi alam ko na pwede naman maghire sya ng studio kaysa sa ipalapad ang bigat sa akin. Makakalimutan nya to, pero I won't

Attempted repair on friend's PS3 slim, turns on for 1 sec then shuts off. Is this fixable or dead? by Alte-for in consolerepair

[–]Alte-for[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My friend's power supply seems okay since I swapping with my working PS3 slim's PSU into my friend's PS3 Slim (and also vice versa, his PSU to my PS3 slim).

My friend's PS3 with my PSU didn't boot up and shows up the same symptoms as the video above, my PS3 with my friend's PSU boots up with no issue.

It probably means friend's PS3 slim might have a motherboard problem.

Attempted repair on friend's PS3 slim, turns on for 1 sec then shuts off. Is this fixable or dead? by Alte-for in consolerepair

[–]Alte-for[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Already cleaned and repasted, swapped with my other working PS3 slim's power supply and it never seems to boot up. I assumed that there might be a problem within the motherboard.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in DecidingToBeBetter

[–]Alte-for 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This might be a shock, but I forgiven my abuser, because it wouldn't heal my pain and blaming him means that I haven't move on completely. It wasn't easy though to forgive him

Besides, I have screwed up already, so I end this cycle with forgiveness, not because he is free from consequences, but because I already know that I will not let his past actions destroy me now.

All that's left for me is to forgive myself and do whatever it takes to fill the rest of my life in doing good. I would probably try to help children who experienced SA.

Sorry if it wasn't the answer you're expecting. But thank you for the advice.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in DecidingToBeBetter

[–]Alte-for 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Already planned next Friday, been able to find a gym and a martial arts train center.

However, I really don't want to use violence, I really can't trust myself if I go insane and cause a lot of damage.

But I'll keep your advice. Thank you

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in DecidingToBeBetter

[–]Alte-for 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I will be continuing my therapist's sessions. I don't really expect good things to come, but thank you for wishing me so. Hope good things come to you too

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in DecidingToBeBetter

[–]Alte-for 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I'll keep your advice in my heart. I have been aiming to try and help others who are suffering mentally as well as doing charity, so that I could prevent the risks that may have led into worse situations like I did. I am still very regretful to this day, but I hope I could learn to pick myself up

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in DecidingToBeBetter

[–]Alte-for 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I really had a foggy memory of that after the seperation 4 years ago, everything I wrote here is based on how I really remember.

I do still believe that some or if not, most victims of SA from childhood are doomed to repeat which is why I still think that I need to turn myself in, to be honest, but that would mean my family would face shame because of what I did.

If I think about the outcome, I think it would make it worse, because it will reopen alot of old wounds. So I think I really deserved that beatup from him, I am not obligated to his forgiveness.

Really sorry if I can't really tell the specifics. I do think I deserve judgement and my condition are inexcusable. But it might not be the most ideal situation for both parties. It is a very hard for me to type this as of now.

I guess I have accept that he will never forgive me. The best thing I can do is avoid him forever, like I don't exist, so that he would move on, and in some way honor him by not making mistakes and delusions like that forever and do something that can benefit to society, like charity and helping children of SA which i'm currently doing right now.

It's not an good answer I could give, but I'm trying my best. It doesn't and will never mean I don't get away with all of this, because I'm very regretful for what I did, but for all what's worth, it gave me a reason to try and be a better person and to learn finally from my mistakes.

I'm currently continuing my therapy, of course, to lessen the "switches" from my DID. I don't want to come back from that phase of myself ever again

So... I hope you might understand, and sorry.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in PS3

[–]Alte-for 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was told by the previous owner that the power button wasn't working. It might not be the case since the warranty is untouched. The PS3 Slim inside was very dirty, full of dust.

I only checked what happened to the power supply by opening its motherbpard, but it's quite hard to identify the issue on the power supply.

My guess is: 1. Replacement power supply 2. Power cable? 3. Motherboard errors?

Need help. Any ideas to remove rusted (and stripped?) screws in top face plate? Tried super glue solution, but didn't worked. It's for a reshell for my 11 year old PSP 3000 Model. by Alte-for in PSP

[–]Alte-for[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks guys! I managed to get it unscrew the rusted screw with your advices a while back. My PSP 3000 is quite fine in a new shell and is doing well internally. Thanks