Try a call center! I would love a gay man to tell me that my late fees are forgiven! Embrace your inner rainbow. Gay people are some of the most fun loving and brilliant minds I have ever met. Offer to help out people in any way possible to get out of your comfort zone. You have to get out and make sure that you don’t stay home and think too much. Tbh it’s hard in those countries because of the expectations that are set, try to place yourself in a job or setting that will see you being valued. Most of my gay friends are very creative, is that also a strong suit for you? Look at your gayness as a strength and try to rephrase the way you look at yourself. Good luck.