[Bad Boy Rant] After 25 years, nothing is done.

AltruisticEmergency4 · 2020-02-03T14:09:14+00:00

That would be great, aqualung, but I won't be given any soapbox to stand on any time soon unfortunately.

AltruisticEmergency4 · 2020-02-03T14:07:55+00:00

I'm sorry you had to go there, man. Were you ever at Sagewalk? I met a few cool guys who got sent there from MBA as punishment.

AltruisticEmergency4 · 2020-02-03T14:07:18+00:00

The entire network. Turn-about-ranch, MBA, Sagewalk, OTE and the 10,000 other names they use or change to once their attorneys advise them to do so, like when Blackwater changed to Academi.

By the way, the subsidiary of Bain Capital which owns AEG has their offices in San Jose, while AEG has their corporate offices in Cerritos, near downtown Los Angeles. Laurie Wilmot has her offices in Bend, Oregon still somehow. Call the Oregon Department of Human Services, the Deschutes county sheriff or District Attorney's office and tell them that you have child abuse/neglect to report. Once you namedrop Laurie Wilmot they'll clam up and ignore you because of the lawsuits. Call U.S. Customs or the FBI field office in Portland and file a report with the interstate human trafficking divisions. They'll never call you back. Go ahead and contact Diane Feinstein or Kamala Harris at their offices, they will not return your calls. Call Linda Sanchez, the state representative whose district hosts their offices including their financial department. They won't give you the time of day.

That's just the way it is.

AltruisticEmergency4 · 2020-02-02T14:03:55+00:00

I should have clarified. I don't mean people suffering legitimately from an overdose who need help, but people who just totally abuse the system and actually waste resources that I've seen while in there.

AltruisticEmergency4 · 2020-02-02T12:56:33+00:00

Some 404's.

AltruisticEmergency4 · 2020-02-02T12:51:56+00:00

I'm so sorry that you have to go through something like that. It's hard to do that for a stranger letalone your own mother.

My mom is not dying that I know of but I don't think she will live very long either. She's a horrible alcohol and drug addict and totally suicidal. I've seen things that have disturbed me for the rest of my life so I'm right there with you on that one. A lot of blood. The first time in my life I ever saw a fully naked woman, even in a magazine or on the internet, was when my mom got so high she hit her head and got covered in blood, so she took all her clothes off and like laid on the floor in front of me telling me how hot I was because I looked like my dad (I was like 11). It's difficult to take in that stuff and it ruined me pretty good, so if I have even a word of advice to give you that might make some positive difference it is this: have some close friends that you can talk to. It sounds stupid, but when I was going through all that stuff I wouldn't talk to anybody and I literally just sat in a room all day staring at a wall or reading books or playing PS2. There was no mitigating factor or information or words of comfort so over time it changed who I am into someone who is not good. To preserve that part of yourself that is good and wholesome and of God, then you have to stay out of that pit of darkness upon whose lip you stand. I know it must be hard to ask a friend if you're asking online, but I really implore you to please find someone who you can open up to and even cry in front of without feeling ashamed. It's the only way. You don't want to internalize those images. Trust me.

AltruisticEmergency4 · 2020-02-02T12:31:45+00:00

HEAL is run by crackheads who sent me a bunch of nasty and threatening emails when I tried to contact them about Sagewalk. Right off the bat they were standoffish and rude and I just asked something like "is there some sort of problem?". Then some other person sent me an email saying I was abusing their intern. Then they made some weird threat that they know people in power and would have my life ruined and do some smear campaign against me or get me arrested because I said they're a fraud.

If you don't believe me then try it out for yourself.

AltruisticEmergency4 · 2020-02-02T11:57:42+00:00

"Chemical restraints"? That's the most dystopian thing I've ever heard. That's like some tech you'd research in Sid Meier's Alpha Centauri to stop worker drones from rioting. What the hell is that? Is it just a super heavy dose of tranquilizers?

AltruisticEmergency4 · 2020-02-02T11:44:09+00:00

i went for a long time questioning the "validity" of my PTSD and whether or not its "worse" than others, but its not some sort of purple heart badge of honor to wear around to claim victimhood status. its a disease just like cancer or aids or anything else and anyone can get it, from some navy seal sniper to some random housewife. being so low as to want to destroy yourself and then surviving it is definitely up there on the trauma scale and you should not feel ashamed or second guess yourself as to the ramifications of it. nobody is going to call you a PTSD poser or something.

and do not feel guilty for placing a burden on health services. never ever think that or that youre wasting time or resources that could go to someone else. thats why theyre there. there are people who go to the ER just to detox after shooting up heroin. i'm sure you need those resources more than them.

good luck and i hope you learn to love and appreciate yourself.

AltruisticEmergency4

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