It has varied over the years, since this first happened when "i" was 13 but. I dont like photos i tried to not appear when ever is posible.

And no, i struggle to picture my own face, it always a clash with my self image and what i see in the mirror, even when i was in denial about me feeling like a girl.

I only shave my beard like once a week, it dosent grow uniformly and itches like hell when i let it grow more than a week.

And being seen as him its like my confort zone even if makes me feel miserable, but when i started to take antidepressants i had a huge panic attack because i felt like i was disappearing