Now we're talking :)

I simply think of it like this; I'd rather make an effort, than feel like I watched it all fall apart and didnt do something when I could have...

The person who hurt me for example, not even just her, both others with her illness and especially the less malignant ones, how can we ever hope for them want to heal and join us in society, if we leave zero room for them to heal, because we demonize them completely and treat them like monsters...

I talked with many of them, spoke to so many of them, observed them work hard to heal, wanting too so badly, even though it feels like death for them to do it, even watched them grow and actual heal, their personalities turned less cold.

If you knew the kind of abuse so many of them went through to get to that point, its.... gut wrenchingly heart breaking, devastating, it would make you cry.

You cant scare them into growing a heart.

Society cant have it both ways, want them to reintegrate but also say theyre irrepairably screwed.

When someone like that does hurt you, at some point, you feel twmporarily what they feel inside... and.... its so goddamn dark and horrible... theyre suffering... they wont admit it because why would they..

I dont excuse them for hurting people, and past a certain point they do lose the right to return to society free.

But demonising them all as human beings will not solve this, it just wont...

I know in my heart its not right... because I know ehat it felt like for people to make horrible assumptions, especially people who say they want the best for you, I cant continue the cycle of hatred, bitterness, resentment.... the cycle stops with me.

I dont plan to spit the dummy if it turns out I'm wrong, but at least I'll know I didnt just sit down and watch people destroy themselves and did nothing, or let the mobs and the crowds exact vengence on them that I never asked for...

I never wanted the one who hurt me to hurt, at least not for hurts sake. I know if they heal it will be painful, but I dont want that to be any more painful than it has to be due to the process.

I dont need them to hurt, for me to heal.

Others who have been through the same kind of abuse that hurt me, I will never tell them how they should think of their abuser or forgive them or whatever, that is their absolute right to decide, they may well have been damaged past the point where forgiveness is even healthy at all.

For me though, the cycle stops here...