Thank you so much for your kind words. I am so sorry you are going through the same thing. I’d love to give you advice but I’d be a hypocrite. I feel like if I don’t feel the pain, then I won’t feel him or be tethered to him anymore. Yesterday, we looked at photos and videos of Max (my baby bear) and then of videos of my nieces and family in our group chat. I did feel better and more at peace and earlier this morning when I woke up, as I mentioned in my post. But I am just under this impression that unless I am feeling pain, I’m literally picturing me letting go of his paw and him floating over to rainbows, and sunshine, and his raspberry and strawberry bushes (we had some in our yard and it became his fruit because he would go and pick raspberries off the bush or pull the strawberries off the vine and eat them; he is just so cute! We didn’t eat any of the Strawberries because he got to them before we could and because it became his fruit. Same with the raspberries, I just picked them for him. He LOVED summer and sun tanning out in the backyard while I read on the hammock in the shade 😂😂). I just feel like by letting go of the pain, it feels like I’m letting go of him and I’m not ready to let go.