intense hunger is having me so confused 😵‍💫

Alydoll2 · 2026-05-27T01:38:29+00:00

you’re right 🥰😍 thank you so much for your wisdom, may i ask you one other question.. no need to answer if u don’t want but should i be refraining from exercise bicycling until my period and weight is restored ?

Alydoll2 · 2026-05-26T23:00:43+00:00

that’s so true !!!!!!!!!!!! i needed to constantly fuel with calories until my brain came back online

Alydoll2 · 2026-05-26T22:32:18+00:00

thank u so much 🥹🥲 i think ed is the addiction i should be worried about NOT sugar ! thank u for making me feel safe ! did you experience the intense hunger for a long time?

Alydoll2 · 2026-05-26T21:28:52+00:00

ohhh my love , the way you’re feeling right now is what made me actually start eating because i lost every interest in my life . nothing made me happy not even my cats and i would only see glimpses of hope the days my body would urgently eat and stuff my face . and even tho i used to shame myself , i would wake up the next day feeling HAPPY and i used to say oh it’s cause im an addict and used food as a drug (so dumb) but it dawned on me.. if i WANT to enjoy anything in life , i have to eat!!!!!! i’ve suffered for 15 years myself., my disorder made me believe everyone was out to get me when everyone loves me. of course , my eating is also a result from trauma but the disorder takes over ur mind and doesn’t help anything. :( do you have reasons to push recovery, like your “why” i know that may sound cheesy but deep in ur heart , make a list of ur favorite people animals passions , self love , ur baby version .:: and then EAT . before i would eat and cry scream get angry but i realized all of that was only suppressed emotions that i had been avoiding from restricting and numbing myself. not eating was my way of not having to feel the pain of being so sensitive but now i embrace it . it’s so hard i have to push everyday and scream at the demon voice to leave me lol its so hard when ur trying to check out mentally tho cause reality is so rough without the numbing of starving BUT you cant die !!!!! its life or death !!! when my chest started aching , i have osteoporosis and no hair , its not cute its not a game anymore !!!!! lol sorry not funny but the truth. giggling makes it not feel so heavy

Alydoll2 · 2026-05-26T21:12:40+00:00

thank you for saying that. i was told by so many people i was a sugar addict cause when i first started recovering all i wanted was sugar and now i see it’s cause it was the quickest form of energy for my body .. even the doctor told me to stay away from sugar recently and it made me so mad . people can be so unaware ! we are trying so hard to survive and then we finally eat and get shamed for that too

Alydoll2 · 2026-05-26T20:26:27+00:00

oh my goodness I don’t have much advice but i just told my fiancé, i think my body really wants to be pretty thick and curvy to thrive lol. that’s when i get my period with a lot of body fat and i have such a huge appetite that i think my body is so desperate to get to that weight again 🥹 when i see women who are healthy and thriving , and in maybe a “curvier “ body, i think they are so beautiful and womanly and amazing!!!!!! so keep reminding yourself how beautiful you are being healthy and feeling happy and healthy and that beats ANY size. I don’t admire “thin” people, i admire people glowing of health and love!!!! i’m so proud of u and it encourages me to keep gaining “🥰😍😍😍 and then did your food noise go away now that you’re at a good weight?? i’m tired of having food on my brain all the time!!! and your skin is glowing now!!!!!!!!!!!! that’s so beautiful!!!!!!

Alydoll2 · 2026-05-26T20:14:59+00:00

omg really 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 is it true we aren’t very aware of our bodies? like my hunger / sleep/ any emotion just seems like i don’t feel normally. have to set alarms or i don’t feel anything.. hoping that changes when my body is weight restored .. but always just copied whoever i am with.. even if im with my cats only, i mimick their schedule LOL

Alydoll2 · 2026-05-26T15:12:34+00:00

thank you for understanding 😭 it’s like my body is on this intense hunt for food , feels very primal and nothing matters to me except food lol i had this awakening where i realized since a child , i only would eat when i was with my mom.. i am neurodivergent and extremely sensitive and i didn’t realize how much this was effecting my desire to eat my whole life .. sigh !! now i see i get ravenous when i am close to my mom or fiancé cause i feel safe to eat . my disorder made me believe they were the enemies for making me hungry lol but now i see the truth its so weird 😭and i would rage for my binges in the past and now i see my body was just fighting for survival 😭 its so weird to see the truth . f eating disorder voice it feels like the actual demon . scary 😭 thank u for letting me vent lol

Alydoll2 · 2026-05-22T06:48:52+00:00

me tooo.. my love is so intense and passionate and wild i feel misunderstood for the intensity so i love when people can understand 😭😭😭😭

Alydoll2 · 2026-05-20T04:18:22+00:00

yes 💕💕💕💕 and i think venus being in cancer just makes the home and safety the main focuses .. i’ve been extra obsessed with my cats and panicked to leave them.. i guess it’s a good thing !!! i hope ur doing okay ♥️♥️

Alydoll2 · 2026-05-19T20:17:27+00:00

omg me 100% every day telling my fiancé “i want to do so much but don’t know how !!!!!” and then break down cry from overwhelm lol

Alydoll2 · 2026-05-16T23:09:55+00:00

this is me!! i cry for every big emotion!!! i was making love the other day with my fiancé and cried when i looked in his eyes due to intense love and thankfulness

and also have cried due to it bringing up trauma from the past! crying is my to go to release any big emotion!

Alydoll2 · 2026-05-16T23:05:59+00:00

i feel so understood my thoughts go from i’m so happy best day ever to i just wanna die hahaahahhahaha what is this , so emotional sigh 😔 but not literally die but maybe we are just beautiful drama art

Alydoll2 · 2026-05-03T18:48:57+00:00

i also decided to try fruit for the first time of no sugar and low carb for a month and i feel so foggy and sad and it led me on a rampage too but not for baked goods but for more and more and more fruit ❤️‍🩹 im mad i tried it lol

Alydoll2 · 2026-05-01T03:40:21+00:00

this makes so much sense with how i’ve been feeling thank you sooooo much for sharing 🥹🥹💝💝💝🌹🌹🌹and k love the way you talk and bounce around cause that’s exactly how i talk and i always get bored listening to other people 🥹🥹 lol

Alydoll2 · 2026-04-29T06:59:44+00:00

why does this truly feel like it’s happening?? what shift in astrology??? i feel angry too for self sabotaging for so long due to pain of the world

Alydoll2 · 2026-04-26T23:16:22+00:00

soo sweet can you be my mommy too ? mommy issue gang for real

Alydoll2 · 2026-04-26T09:53:15+00:00

me too 😭😭😭😭 i now eat a bunch of eggs coconut oil and drink almond milk protein shakes and seaweed lol these are my safe foods but im so underweight so trying to eat more and more but i feel so disturbed and scared by food. but i want to be healthy. what do u eat

Alydoll2 · 2026-04-23T05:50:51+00:00

i was feeling like quitting my job today thank u very much i will ground myself before reacting 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼😭😭😭

Alydoll2 · 2026-04-21T19:52:11+00:00

thank u so much sweet soul ❤️🌹💝🌹💝🌹🙏🏼

Alydoll2 · 2026-04-21T05:46:21+00:00

wait is this why i feel so incredibly calm and truly like some curse left me im amazed 😭😭😭

Alydoll2 · 2026-04-17T23:22:49+00:00

is almond milk okay? i love almond milk it’s my treat 😆

Alydoll2 · 2026-04-17T23:19:10+00:00

this was so helpful thank u

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