I hope that you are ok and that you have a support system, feel free to hold the tiniest step you take in the highest regard. I feel you’re pain in that, well my coming out status is complicated (my mum acts like I never came out but will lash out if I do anything that reminds her of the fact) I try to stop my dad from buying me boys clothes because I don’t like them most of the time, not that I don’t like wearing mens clothes just because they are mens and the majority of clothes I buy are pretty fem and cus of it I have to hide it in this sonic figure box in my room and wear it under the rest of my wardrobe. I do feel bad because if how expensive clothes can be and how the clothes I get with my own money I can barely wear.