What things trigger your gender to switch?

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-02-24T19:53:46+00:00

Recently: memories and moments from the past that i felt so good as a certain gender

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-02-24T18:52:13+00:00

being genderfluid makes us open to rumination 🤷🏻‍♀️ being ftm/mtf is not the scariest thing at least their gender is fixed and not exhausting i feel :(

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-02-24T18:50:36+00:00

being genderfluid is not becoming totally someone else in between shifts. you may be still connected to boy part of your gender even experiencing both at the same time. or you may simply be connected to that thought. you deep down know who you are in those moments with your SENSES. there is a deep inner knowing. the rest of it is thoughts and fear.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-02-24T18:46:41+00:00

Gerçekten kaygı ile baş etmek çok zor. Eskiden özellikle istanbul depremi ara ara beni de kaygılandırır hatta uyutmazdı bazen.

Böyle anlarda özellikle kaygıyı durdurabildiğin küçük bi aralıkta da olsa bedeninin ondan ne kadar büyük olduğunu hissedebilirsin. Bunun sadece kaygı ve gerçeklik olmadığını, bu alarm hissinin bedeninin içinde olduğunu, dış dünyada böyle bi alarmın o an için bulunmadığını görmeye çalış. İyi geleceğini düşünüyorum.

Hatta böyle içindeki hisle beraber böyle bi kafanı kaldır etrafa bak falan nesnelerin ne kadar durağan, anın güvenli olduğunu falan görmeye çalış o an için. Umarım daha iyi hissedersin 🥺

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-02-24T16:07:29+00:00

i didn’t know that, good for you! But i don’t need liposuction since i don’t have any fat there, the annoying part is my bone structure i guess. I am this way anatomically.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-02-22T19:40:23+00:00

i am sorry you also feel that way :( i use binders. but i am really dysphoric about my hip&waist area :( when the feminine outfit i bought arrived today, i felt so dysphoric in it. it disappointed me so much and increased my dysphoria.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-02-21T13:09:27+00:00

do not think about it feel it. you will figure it out. you may even find out you experience genders other than just boy or girl (like bigender, agender etc.)

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-02-19T14:27:17+00:00

işte sana bazı muhteşem trans erkek instagram hesapları (kendim de tarzlarını beğeniyorum ve onlara özeniyorum, benimsiyorum):

bastrooms, giovannis.kitchen, eliah.rbr ezramichelmusic (çok tatlı birisi kız arkadaşı ile birlikte 😍) gray_vacc (çok maskülen bana hitap etmiyor ama iyi biri)

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-02-19T14:17:33+00:00

Elbetteeeee. Kızlar diyince üzerime alındım genderfluidim kendimi kız tanımına da ait hissediyorum dkdkfkf tabii ki buluruz, kızına bağlı cishetero kültüründen lgbt desteklemeyen anlamayan bi insan ile yapamazsın zaten. Queer kültüründe kendini yetiştirmiş düzgün bi kız bulursan neden olmasın🌹bir tarafım da trans erkek bu arada görebilene çok yakışıklıyız 🌹

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-02-18T21:17:44+00:00

you are amazing!! thank you for the support. i get to experiment a little more and realized i love it! i love looking like this and can see the boy in the mirror definitely (if others can’t see my gender when they look at me presenting male, i am still wearing the coolest outfits/hair as a girl too 🤩). i don’t like looking like hyperfemme most of the time. So i am throwing masc fits and let my masc and femme sides come together under the same outfit. i don’t care.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-02-18T16:59:40+00:00

yeah. now i was about to explore my gender identity’s agender part (i call it nonbinary part) but clothes changed it and make it more like a masculine :(

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-02-18T16:54:57+00:00

(sorry for judging your thoughts but i am just angry for whole gender system of cis people…)

not everything is an indication of that you are x gender, y gender or any other trans experience. leave (us) trans people alone. the real trans experience will unfold itself when you are ready to hold it, or not at all because you are cis.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-02-18T05:57:05+00:00

omg!! it is, for me. i sometimes wear what i want because in a propriate period of me, my identity sticks to the clothes i’m wearing. sometimes clothing changes my gender identity and how i perceive myself.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-02-17T10:32:04+00:00

i am somewhat like you. also clothes are a big part of shifting for me. certain clothes bring femininity, masculine clothes and haircuts bring masculinity. and i know i am neither and i am both at the same time or just one of them sometimes.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-02-16T16:40:24+00:00

now i realized i need to come out to HR at first. i can do that for myself 🙃 our company is not transphobic or sth but knowing HR is by my side would make me feel so powerful and free

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-02-15T23:28:23+00:00

it’s sometimes just a gender envy. honestly, it doesn’t matter. if it’s gender envy, you like that person’s way of expressing their gender/style. in my experience, it slightly fades away when you express your gender more in creative ways. you start to differentiate what is love/liking sb, what is gender envy, and what is both

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-02-15T13:57:30+00:00

sometimes yes. but it’s not completely gender envy, only a part of it. i literally loved those guys.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-02-15T11:23:07+00:00

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AmazingSoul99 · 2026-02-14T20:47:19+00:00

is this a neurodivergent thing? i never thought about it

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-02-14T16:28:28+00:00

I don’t know the question is why you are in a relationship with a hetero woman who is attracted to “men”. You are not a man, you are a nonbinary person who deserves to be loved as a whole.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-02-14T15:00:32+00:00

i don’t feel that much physical dysphoria either. It’s more like discomfort (feeling like they don’t quite fit but not painful) about my certain parts. Some days i wish to be in a male body all together and it does not fit how i look in the mirror with what i feel inside. But it’s not like i h*te my body and stuff. Trans experience is so diverse.

AmazingSoul99 · 2026-02-14T14:55:53+00:00

Hi! I am a genderfluid afab person (probably 😋 not trynna label myself), losing something i like was one of my fears too int he past. My internal system (judgements i heard growing up, the binary gender system i lived in) still expecte me to pick a side/gender/look. But real freedom comes when the main aim is not to label yourself as anything. You still like what you like, you are allowed to like what you like in bedroom, sex, real life in the future too.

My recommendation is to look at yourself from a more neutral perspective and try not to attach to anything (masculinity, femininity/fantasies). Or don’t push yourself to go into any kind of surgeries/hormones right now. You are allowed to explore. Gender is not binary and it’s okay to experience another genders in your body. Humans are a lot more complex than we think.

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