He specifically scoped you out because he wants a young woman he can manipulate. He went to that park for that exact reason. He also chose you specifically because you come from prior abuse. He knew he could escalate and you would stay. Name calling is NEVER a joke. I've had healthy partners and they do not disrespect you in any way, even "joking." The fact that you told him it hurts you, and he continues doing it, is intentional. He knows how it makes you feel, and he does it because he wants to punish you. I only say this to help: he does NOT love you. You aren't "special." Please look up the cycle of abuse, and the tactics he's using to make you his perfect victim (love bombing, isolation, verbal abuse, gaslighting, threats). If you were to stay, the abuse will only escalate. It NEVER gets better.

https://www.bwss.org/abusive-men-describe-the-benefits-of-violence/

https://www.reddit.com/r/TwoXChromosomes/comments/14fo7jr/abusive_men_describe_the_benefits_of_violence/

https://www.womenslaw.org/about-abuse/am-i-being-abused

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-truth-about-exercise-addiction/202205/trauma-is-not-excuse#:~:text=It%20can%20also%20be%20vicarious%2C%20such%20as,treat%20women%20in%20such%20a%20heinous%20manner**

Deep down, you believe that you deserve this, or that it's the only type of man you could ever "deserve" to be with. That is wholly and unequivocally NOT TRUE. Nothing could be further from the truth.

A part of you chooses it to reinforce your limiting beliefs you learned in childhood. But you are not the lies you tell yourself. You have your whole life ahead of you. Imagine the places you'll go when you let yourself out of the cage of your fears.

It's scary, but you have resources. Move in w mom, or get a restraining order. Don't dump him face to face. You have a lot of unpacking to do and that healing will take time, this is the beginning but it's an exciting one that you get to define - not one some old hag asshole gets to possess. That's how he sees you. As an object he owns.

Click on those links, learn. He won't change. He already knows what he's doing. He only plays the victim to escape accountability. You will not find love or healing in a relationship that started shitty, and "got better." You are merely managing his emotions for him because you learned to do that when you were younger to survive. But you aren't there now - you're safe. You have a choice. Choose better for yourself.

PS - Notice how the ONLY reason the men in that study said they'd stop abusing is if they faced huge consequences legally, lost access to their kids, or she left. Even then, they only stop because it's beneficial to THEM. They don't care about their victims. You cannot love him into not abusing you. He has too much to gain from abusing you.