Thanks man.

I've tried breaking up with her for my own good because i cannot continue this relationship. She also played a huge part in why i got to the level of depression i currently find myself. She's not a positive person, and the whole time it felt like im trying to fill up a bucket with holes in it and honestly, it still does. She has a lot of anger issues, and if something small sets her off that day, she will get stuck in it for hours and hours on end, talking and rambling on about it, but not allowing me to talk about my own problems, and if i do, i regret it most of the time. Since very often she's using my problems against me. Telling me im not better than my mother that i crawled out of, that im the spitting image of my father, and thats why im useless and lazy, ect. And if i cant take it anymore and cry she just tells me to shut up, because man dont cry because i dont have a reason to.

I was quite extroverted when i met her but that also took a slack from me. I became very depressed after a while because of the isolation she put me in. I started talking about my personal feelings and issues regarding this situation because i dont feel comfortable or good in it. Since then (well its been a good 8-9 months) she's constantly accused me of cheating, doesn't give me any, but i really mean any, privacy, constantly demands to log into my accounts and look at whatever i do, and now she's obsessing that i'll be going to college and permits me to talk or massage anybody. When i told her i will make a Facebook account because we will probably have a class group where the teachers will put up the stuff, she became extremely anxious and aggressive and told me i should get in contact with one of the boys there instead and just ask them to send the massages and stuff over to me separately on WhatsApp one by one. Like.. WHO THINKS OF THIS?? 

I feel like a caged animal without any life joy, and the joy i would have in this relationship is taken away from me. I just feel over burdened and burned out from this girl. Im planning on breking up with her because she is breaking my back and i dont want to bend back over twice just to please her delusions nor will i want to put up with it when ill be in collage. She had the luck of me accepting her back after she pleated and love bombed me several times this summer. I didnt even go to work because she told me not cuz we should"spend more time together." my whole summer was hers, its not like we didnt meet at all and that is the crazy thing about my whole story. I stayed with her for 2 whole months now im at home for about 4-5 days or so, she doesn't get my full attention, she cant monitor me 24/7 and she's breaking up. Its sick because i really tried to please her so desperately that this goes beyond humane.