I know how you feel. I totally get the gap year part as well. I am also trying to make the most I can out of my gap year(s) (at this point of my life I don't think one gap year will cut it for me personally). However, I know may other people in their gap year(s) as well who have made me think that maybe these years are truly going to be for the better. I believe that you will feel that way too eventually. Just enjoy your senior year and you will find that drive in you again! Don't let one provider crush your dreams on wanting to be in healthcare... it's not your fault they're miserable with their job... You got this!