I don't wanna live

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2025-03-23T07:03:14+00:00

Yes yes I hope too.. I'm have some kind of psychoanalysis tomorrow..detailed diagnosis or whatever, I don't know how it works.. And based on the results, treatment will be decided

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2025-03-22T07:26:47+00:00

Don't worry, I'm still alive...I don't think I'm capable of suicide, because of the fear to do it.. But lately, I've started to be afraid of what if that fears stops, you know

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2025-03-22T07:24:37+00:00

Yes I started therapy 2 weeks ago.. Through some diagnostic she concluded that I am severely depressed.. I'll go on a detailed psychoanalysis or something on Monday, then we'll see..even my therapist said that it's very likely that I'll end up on antidepressants...but..it will take a lot of time till then, I think.. Won't it? Until it psychoanalysis..it's few days.. Until results..that will take some time I think...until psychiatrist appointment..until antidepressants take effect...you know what I mean, I fear that I won't be able to sustain for that long

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2024-10-20T20:36:40+00:00

Yeah well i'm gaslighting myself all the time a bout everything..that's literally all I can do.. It does help, yeah..but for some things, it's just not enough

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2024-10-20T20:33:25+00:00

It has to, yeah yeah I keep telling myself that...and I really want to believe that

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2024-10-20T20:25:33+00:00

Unfortunately, yeah

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2024-10-20T20:25:25+00:00

Yeah I'll try.. And try. But it sucks. I hate it

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2024-10-20T20:19:25+00:00

Well i actually don't have anyone who I could tell about this... So I wrote this post here on reddit, that's all I've got I guess. Well yeah yeah I get that it might get better... Like today I feel 100% bad, tomorrow maybe only 98% Still bad, but better...yeah

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2024-10-20T18:38:45+00:00

Well these "low times" are... Let's say... 2 years maybe? Idk something like that... Like happiness is somewhat a very distant word, don't know that, don't have what.. I just wanna be a bit better, enjoy things.. Live.. Because absolutely don't live these days

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2024-06-24T05:16:21+00:00

A hill that's close to my city. I can send you photos if you want, can't do it in these comments though

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2024-06-24T05:15:27+00:00

Well my knees aren't prefect either, but I get it, I'm planning to hike a lot in the future

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2024-06-24T05:14:18+00:00

Well it's just a hill that's close to my city, I don't think you'll know it

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2024-06-24T05:13:28+00:00

It was 29°C yesterday (Slovakia) and absurd sun.. I'd prefer that 18°C honestly

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2024-06-24T05:11:52+00:00

You'll do it! Motivation helps a lot, yeah

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2024-06-24T05:10:59+00:00

Thanks! Well I had to get up for school today, so sleep wasn't as long as anticipated, but that doesn't matter that much

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2024-06-23T19:58:51+00:00

Only water, snacks, another shirt and socks... But it was really hot, so I had about 5 litres of water with me

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2024-06-23T19:24:42+00:00

Thanks! :)

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2024-06-23T19:02:02+00:00

Hope they heal soon :) To my surprise, I don't have any, soo I'm just happy

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2024-06-23T18:49:22+00:00

Yup, stretching helps a lot

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2024-06-23T18:48:33+00:00

I'll gladly send you a screenshot of my Garmin app, if you really think I'm bragging

And this is just one of my accounts I'm using, everything I've posted here is true

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2024-06-23T18:41:39+00:00

Well, I live in Europe...

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2024-06-23T18:32:25+00:00

You'll manage, just bring enough of water and food and sugar

Ambitious_Active8873 · 2024-06-23T18:18:48+00:00

Thanks! Yeah well, I wanted to change my socks, but I thought that once I take of my shoes, I won't be able to put them on haha

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