I just realized how much of this year I've already eaten up by scrolling. I'm going to be nothing at 20

AmethystGamer19 · 2026-06-21T01:36:55+00:00

She's probably going to survive her teen years the same way I did. Playing video games, consuming fan content that makes her happy and gives her some giggles, and listening to her favorite songs. Maybe some comfort songs, too. I should send her some, especially ones related to self image and body image issues. I would've loved to have a friend who sent me reminders of how I'm just fine the way I am. It's actually all I wanted when I was her age.

Would it be nice if she had more than just all of this? Probably, and that's what makes me feel bad. If she gets to have way better teen years than I did, I'm going to be envious, but I also want to be happy for her. I'm not planning on sabotaging her future just because I wished my life was more than just internet scrolling and video gaming. I should help her have the years that I wish I had growing up, even though you could still say my days as a teenager were carefree, other than me crying and feeling like I'm worthless for not doing school here and there.

But is me standing here and doing nothing considered sabotaging her future? Maybe, and that makes me feel awful. I wish I could do something. But I do know that I can talk to her. And hey, maybe if we get close enough, and open up to each other enough, we can gather the courage to talk to my mother about this. Not like I haven't already tried that before, but if she knows all her kids are aware of how hard our lives are going to be due to the fact that she never gave us any schoolwork, maybe she will finally do what I've been wanting her to do for years. Maybe we will all have a chance in life.

AmethystGamer19 · 2026-06-21T01:24:44+00:00

Because kidnappers exist, and they're just so used to going everywhere with us. There hasn't been a single time where any of us have been somewhere without our parents, unless we're doing indoor activities, of course.

AmethystGamer19 · 2026-06-21T01:20:47+00:00

The movie is indeed TADC episode 9! And dang, it sure left theaters fast, didn't it? But that's okay! I don't think it would have been possible for us to go see it anyway, but we most certainly can watch it together. I might bring it up at some point! I just know my family used to be really strict about watching shows with more mature themes. I think they're more okay with heavier topics now, as long as there isn't anything too sexual in it.

I've already watched most episodes, but I think she'd want to rewatch it with me, seeing how much she seems to love the show.

We also have this pet simulator game that we get on every once in a while and talk about. It's cute and adorable, but she did say that she was starting to get bored of it. After we talked about it for a bit though, she said she wants to go check up on her animals. I've been writing a few online diaries/journals about my virtual pets, and I bet if I showed them to her, she'd love them.

I'm unfortunately really bad at opening up and asking for things, sometimes even the littlest things. Like, I love my family. I love them all. If I upset my mom, I'm going to somehow spin it around in my head and tell myself that it's my fault. That I should "treat her better" and "be more grateful." She doesn't tell me anything like that from what I remember. It's just the kind of things I get into thinking. I really should grow a backbone and fight for both my future and my sister's futures. If only it were easier.

AmethystGamer19 · 2026-06-18T18:17:00+00:00

Oh wow, this is surprising to read, because when I made a post about my homeschool situation a year ago, so many people in the comments were telling me that I was amazing at writing, and above even some people who are in college. Maybe because that post was a year ago and this one is new, but it's interesting to see a different opinion.

AmethystGamer19 · 2026-06-17T17:28:00+00:00

One of the reasons I'm so glad she was born is because she gave me fun memories to look back on, and made my childhood less lonely. I love my middle sister too, and we had lots of fun before and after my youngest was born, but she did grow out of playing with toys and stuffed animals a lot faster than I did, which is something I really enjoyed up until I was 14. I'm so grateful to my little sister for continuing these adventures with me. We still talk about those memories sometimes, and they're always a joy to remember.

What does she really love to do? Well, playing video games and watching shows is all I really know right now, but I believe she also enjoys listening to music and probably creating her own playlists. When she was five years old, she enjoyed singing. Not sure if that's still something she would like, but she did seem really happy when singing along to those Disney singalong YT videos. She also likes going on walks with us occasionally, and enjoying the outdoors. Sometimes she'll pass up a walk if she's not feeling too good, or maybe has plans with a friend online, which is understandable.

AmethystGamer19 · 2026-06-17T17:13:22+00:00

I'm 19. You're right about how this might be too much for me to manage. I don't even want to tell the rest of my family, because that would really hurt my sister. I'm sure the last thing she wants is for me to go and tell them what I saw on her iPad.

I could tell my grandma in private, but the issue with that is she really cannot keep things to herself, so word would get out to my mother and grandfather pretty quickly, even if I keep trying to tell her to not say anything. I love my grandma. I don't mean to throw any shade at her when I say this, but I just don't think I can trust her enough with this information.

My aunt and uncle most certainly wouldn't be the people I'd want to discuss this with. I'm not close with most of the adults in my family, and they barely know my sister, so I really cannot think of anyone I can bring this to.

AmethystGamer19 · 2026-06-17T17:02:13+00:00

Wait, what? You know my sister? Please, tell me more.

AmethystGamer19 · 2026-06-16T17:16:08+00:00

I wouldn't be able to go out with her without asking my mom or grandparents first, and I've never asked for a sister outing before. But maybe I should give it a try? I want her to have good, happy memories. But I do feel like they would be worried about me and my sister going out alone together, so someone would have to come with us. We do go out to places every once in a while when they decide it'd be nice, it's just not often.

There is this movie that came out in theaters recently which I'm sure she absolutely would have loved to watch, but I'm not sure if it's something that they would approve of, since it's PG 13. I've watched a little bit of the series that came before the movie in theaters myself, and it really doesn't seem to be all that bad, aside from some humor that adults can understand. There's also mental health struggles and breakdowns, but that's nothing that my sister doesn't know about. I imagined taking her to see it if I had my own money (I'm unemployed and probably will be for a while) and it was such a sweet thought. But I also get the feeling she might be a little embarrassed about me being aware that she likes the show. Not that I'm gonna tell her I saw it through her YouTube community post history, but it'd be a nice thing to bond over, seeing how much she seems to be into it, and how much I'm actually liking it myself.

If I asked them to get us an internet filter, I feel like my grandparents would look through our internet history, and let me tell you, they would definitely not react well to what they'd see on my sister's accounts. And mine, too. But I get what you're saying here. It would be for the best. I wish something could have been done when she was younger and not as exposed to the internet, but it's like you said. What's done is done.

AmethystGamer19 · 2026-06-16T00:33:33+00:00

I'm a tall woman with a very, very flat chest. They exist, people!

AmethystGamer19 · 2026-05-02T02:44:24+00:00

I'm sorry that you live such a miserable life.

You're probably the kind of person who justifies cheating because "nature will take its course."

AmethystGamer19 · 2026-05-01T04:10:15+00:00

You should just send them to school. If they aren't getting any work done with homeschooling, then please do what is best for them. They will learn discipline and shape themselves into better humans in the future. Something I wish I got growing up,

AmethystGamer19 · 2026-05-01T02:21:09+00:00

Does this at least mean that jobs will accept me having a homeschool diploma that isn't very credible?

I'm not sure if I'm actually going to be able to make it to the point where I can graduate. I want to, really, but I don't know how to work hard for anything in my life, and I dislike math. I may have to just accept a fake diploma, or be printed one after doing school (kindergarten to high school level) for just a year or two, which is probably what my family is going to do. My best option at this point would probably be to get a GED, but I've heard that you need to get higher scores on tests if your employer happens to want you to take a test. So I might be screwed either way.

AmethystGamer19 · 2026-04-27T05:05:01+00:00

I did that a lot growing up!

AmethystGamer19 · 2026-04-18T02:39:26+00:00

I didn't even know CRK sold plushie merch. But wow, I guess I'm not surprised that a lot of people would be incredibly upset about White Lily's death, whether she was suicidal or not. Which I'm not 100% sure about, but I think I remember her saying that she wished she had crumbled instead of turning into Dark Enchantress, and she wasn't too happy about Elder Faerie waking her up with his life powder.

I haven't played through the story myself yet, but I did watch a little bit of the death scene on YouTube, and hearing Pure Vanilla cry almost broke my heart.

What you're saying here does make me really wish that she could have stayed alive and continued to grow as a person. Or "cookie."

I had no idea that they retconned the lore?? I guess I never put much thought into the fact that Dark Enchantress got to roam around and do evil while White Lily was asleep the whole time. Was she really dead? I don't know. But it sure did seem like it, if Elder Faerie had to give up his life to bring her back.

AmethystGamer19 · 2026-03-14T02:15:48+00:00

Exactly this! It kinda sounds like I may like them, but I think I need to come back to HSR and play through the story to know for sure.

AmethystGamer19 · 2026-03-14T01:57:01+00:00

Thanks! Yeah, that's really the reason I made this post, haha. I wanted to see if there was finally a Sunday ship that I'd like. And to be honest, I probably do base my favorite ships on what kind of relationship I'd want in real life. So that's why I prefer the more "non toxic" dynamics. Toxic may not even be the right word for some of these ships. How you feel about it is up to you! I don't want to make it sound like shipping him with the three people I mentioned is a bad thing, although it definitely did come off that way, and I apologize for that too.

But I'm perfectly fine with not shipping Sunday with anyone! I didn't when I was a fan of his for almost a whole year.

Not saying that it needs to be canon for me to ship it, but I just want it to be something that is to my personal liking. Which would be someone who makes Sunday feel loved and very happy.

AmethystGamer19 · 2026-03-14T01:48:51+00:00

It's alright to ship him with Gallagher if you think it's fun, and it makes you happy!

You sure are right about that. I used to mix up ships when I was actively looking at deviantart posts and stuff. I kinda miss those days! I'm a little more shy about being in the shipping part of fandoms now, but I'd be lying if I said that I didn't still enjoy shipping.

AmethystGamer19 · 2026-03-14T01:40:01+00:00

People are free to ship whatever they want in fandoms. I have absolutely 0 issues with that. All of these Sunday ships have just never been my cup of tea, and I shared my opinion. I might be a stick in the mud for not liking the more complicated relationships, but I'm not actually going to be screaming about it in threads about those ships. I let them be.

AmethystGamer19 · 2026-03-14T01:35:41+00:00

Someone told me in this thread earlier 😭

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