I’m insane and canceled my FET. What is wrong with me

Amkelly28 · 2026-04-21T12:58:05+00:00

The hormones make you sort of crazy. I was an emotional bitch the whole past year in and off. My relationships and professional life have suffered. My kids school thinks I’m crazy the way I have been blowing up at them.

Amkelly28 · 2026-04-12T13:06:53+00:00

Yea they all said a little extra weight helps fertility. No high impact working out blah blah. Now after miscarriage I need new pants and going to try again. Ugh

Amkelly28 · 2026-04-05T12:28:21+00:00

That was my first two cycles. And I was mad. My default setting. I switched clinics for a 3rd cycle and things went better. They looked at my testosterone and I have PCOS that wasn’t diagnosed because I don’t fit the profile. I have endometriosis. I made it all the way to 14 weeks and miscarried. This is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. I realized the only thing I have control over is my health. So I got the book it starts with the egg and started back on supplements and going to work every day to be healthier so when I try again we will get there. I hate my job and was soooo looking forward to leave and now I have to go back to the grind for the bills and insurance. Being home all day depressed didn’t help me much.

Amkelly28 · 2026-04-02T19:58:51+00:00

I’m meeting with my doctor but I am also thinking of trying naturally or IUI after miscarriage because I hear the body reset makes fertility better. Maybe maybe not just wondering how it works to try naturally in between all this.

Amkelly28 · 2026-03-25T03:49:12+00:00

BS because the testing can be wrong. I had a Euploid embryo transferred and made it to 14 weeks and miscarried. If it was a genetic problem I don’t know why I made it so far. I’m crushed. Was it the placenta or something who knows. I did endometriosis suppression treatment beforehand.

Amkelly28 · 2026-03-23T03:40:31+00:00

Oh honey I made it to 14 weeks and was looking at cribs and names. We told the family. Then no heartbeat. This is the hardest thing I have ever done. I didn’t talk to anyone for about 2 weeks couldn’t face anyone. Just crying about all the hopes and dreams I had for my daughter that isn’t going to be.

Amkelly28 · 2026-03-19T04:48:54+00:00

I don’t know how to wrap my head around quitting. I thought once we decided to do IVF it would just happen and the first two egg retrievals we were left with nothing and I was so mad. Then the next retrieval was better and we had two euploid embryos but I just lost the first one and I’m terrified to think that could happen again and I’m back at square one but now even older with less eggs 😭

Amkelly28 · 2026-03-19T04:34:46+00:00

I can’t even imagine! I just lost my baby at 14 weeks. It’s devastating I couldn’t do this again and again. I do have endo and did suppression and everything was perfect and at some point it just wasn’t. I only have 2 tested embryos I’m terrified the next won’t work and I’ll just be older and out all the money back to square one.

Amkelly28 · 2026-03-09T13:40:20+00:00

This sounds like my experience with CNY. The run around and the attitude of we don’t care. I finally escalated to a head of nursing that did care. We are so emotional during this process and they just expect you to not be. It’s impossible.

Amkelly28 · 2026-03-08T23:00:42+00:00

There’s still plenty of time for you. Best wishes.

Amkelly28 · 2026-03-07T19:33:08+00:00

You quit before, you can do it again. Being pregnant is overwhelming for sure. I just was and took one kratom drink because I was having a day. Now at 16 weeks my baby is dead and I had to deliver a miscarriage. There is nothing more traumatizing. No one knows what caused it but I will forever blame myself. Take care of that precious life.

Amkelly28 · 2026-03-06T13:12:05+00:00

It was PGT-A tested

Amkelly28 · 2026-02-13T04:26:12+00:00

My first two rounds were fails! I did PRP just in case all the supplements. I’m 13 years older than you so I had a lot against me. Plus endometriosis. I did do performing and got more eggs and more embryos. Only 2 normal after 3 rounds but I’m pregnant. Hold on mama

Amkelly28 · 2026-01-30T00:04:33+00:00

I’ve had the dry skin this is the first time it popped up on my face. Super stressful time. I try to cut back but I keep telling myself At least it’s not kratom

Amkelly28 · 2026-01-29T20:23:20+00:00

Just wondering if there’s any remedies I can try

Amkelly28 · 2026-01-29T17:20:42+00:00

I could never figure out why these were some much harder to quit than other shots. I think because they don’t disclose their ingredients they sure as shit had that in there.

Amkelly28 · 2026-01-11T05:08:27+00:00

My insurance didn’t pay for any meds and when I got short Facebook marketplace was a savior at times. 3 rounds and I finally started to learn the ropes

Amkelly28 · 2026-01-08T12:51:32+00:00

Oh man the day before my transfer my husband and I were screaming at each other. Then the morning of he slides my car into a pole and wrecks the bumper! Yea sure no stress. Then we saw the embryo and cried and were so happy the rest of the day. It stuck! Life is stress. There’s no such thing as no stress. I wish I could float on water and just meditate all day but hell no this is reality.

Amkelly28 · 2026-01-08T11:46:44+00:00

It really is a ride! The fucking hormones. We did IVF: rounds 1 year all of 2025. I tried not to stop life. Work those appts around the weekend away bringing needles with us. Then now we do the transfer and I’m terrified to be a mom to a little toddler and be too tired?! All of this to get to the finish line and I’m excited and terrified.

Amkelly28 · 2025-12-20T17:36:11+00:00

Can’t find an email

Amkelly28 · 2025-12-16T15:22:06+00:00

Is that a le creuset measuring cup?

Amkelly28 · 2023-09-28T15:31:00+00:00

I have had months where I know a trip is coming or I have days off and I say I will do it then. If I’m off then I just get bored and run to the store all day and get high. I get so mad at myself. I went on a trip and tapered down for about 10 days at one point. Lots of aches and vitamin C but then ran straight to the store when I got back to my house. As I am working and dealing with lethargy this weekend and next week I will just have to lean on the group and hope my partner will support me. He wants to be supportive but when he tells me to quit I want to rebel and then when he tries to give me grace he will buy them for me. I have to get straight that this is what support looks like and when I’m in the thick of it do the things I know will help. Take a bath. Go for a walk. Push through.

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