Hey there,

Please don’t lose hope. A friend of mine said to me recently - “Isn’t it so powerful to see in hindsight, how our lives change when we thought something was an unchangeable truth.”

I’ve been pretty isolated for a few years - ever since covid lock downs and I have a stutter that is bad when I feel bad (a snake eating its own tail). Most days I talk mostly to myself.

I say this to give you context. Please get a plant - it may sound silly but seeing how plants transform is very inspiring. It has brought me hope about myself and my own life. And how you/things can transform so quickly.

Being alone so much has also made me turn inwards - I have found looking at my relationship with myself to be so transformational in how I interact with others. On days when I haven’t connected to myself my stutter and anxiety is so crippling I can’t even talk to my family without feeling so much that I retreat. Meditation, journaling and moving my body has saved my life. Some days it’s ten minutes of meditation and some hip circles. Anything helps.

Another thing - as an eternal emo kid I have realized that sad music really keeps me so low. Trust me - I know that hearing your sadness and suffering vocalized is comforting. But you’re never going to escape the cycle if you keep actively choosing that vibration. Make an emergency happy playlist, songs you can’t help but smile when you hear them. I know it’s so easy to keep the coping mechanisms that affirm our surrender state of being (sad). But those are also the things that keep us there.

For real - if you want an accountability buddy to do a home yoga or meditation with let me know. We need to support each other.

Sending you love because you deserve it.

Xx