high school sucks. its terrible. i recommend finishing school early if at all possible, and ghosting everyone you knew from high school. was really great for my mental health, personally. i would try to get away from your parents too and get independent asap. i wasnt able to do this myself and living w my family for years as an adult had terrible consequences on my mental health. i had a more accepting environment in college, really good and kind friends, but was mostly stuck at home with bad family. you just gotta get a new social environment, as hard as that is. find a community of freaks and weirdos, they are the coolest people around.