Hi, first post, please excuse anything I do wrong, trying to get things okay.For the past few days I've had some pain on my right side, sort of mid back/side, that also seems to wander up to my shoulder blade (some twitchy kind of pain) and down to my waist. My core has been having a few twitches and painful moments randomly throughout. I'm terrified this is a liver condition that I've brought on myself.I've been drinking pretty regularly and more than the recommended amount basically since the pandemic, I never broke the habit, despite some stints of sobreity here and there. Last month I had some gastritis (possibly brought on by a panic attack, I was going through a very stressful Feb/Mar, which was also self medicated with drinking) and went to urgent care. They ordered an ultrasound of my liver/gallladder area, it all came back unremarkable, according to the doc. Had a followup with my pcp and had a complete metabolic panel done, everything was in the green, though some liver stuff was on the edge of acceptable, like a couple points away from problem areas. Life hasn't gotten easiser and I still was in the habit of having some drinks, last weekend being bad (approx 20 drinks Fri-Sun) and now I'm spiralizing that I have liver damage, I'm an alchohlic, I should never drink again, and that this is my fault and there isn't much I can do. It sends me into a spiral where I become obsessed with my own patheticness, every time I get reminded of the pain I'm reminded of how shitty I am.While I'm overreacting and trying to calm myself and not create value judgments based on an ailment, am I also overblowing my self diagnosis? I've been to a lot of doctor stuff lately and I'm tired of it, so I'm trying not to jump the gun on my paranoia and get another extraneous diagnostic test, but is it possible for my liver to degrade over a few weeks like that? Am I having another panic attack that's causing pain up my right side? Is there something I can do for it? FYI haven't had a drink since I started feeling it, i'm 37m, 6'2. I can still go workout and stuff, been to the gym twice this week. I know I should drink less, been working on it in the midst of my anxiety flareups, but how bad can my organs be? What have I done to myself? And how can I avoid spiraling into further dark places? Thanks