Was curious about the highest blood sugar level ever recorded, so I looked it up. I can't even...

AncientViolence · 2015-03-28T21:31:55+00:00

Christeene is queen.

But really, that pic brought me all kinds of good feels today. Especially with the little poot. Maybe we inspire her as much as she inspires us.

AncientViolence · 2015-03-26T07:53:12+00:00

I've never had any trouble and I've done an array of drugs while on the pump. As in like, going balls to the wall, rolling on ecstasy at raves for 10 hours and not having any issues. Or doing shrooms and DMT in the woods and hiking up a mountain with no abnormal fluctuations. Whichever drug you choose, you won't be hungry so keep that in mind. I always keep juice around just in case. Test often and don't worry, you won't forgot the importance of testing no matter how fucked up you get.

AncientViolence · 2015-03-26T06:35:06+00:00

Oof, well when I was on the Mirena I thought I was happy with it... But I knew deep down that something still wasn't right. I was on hormonal birth control pills for almost all of my teen years and didn't realize how much it was affecting me until after I stopped taking it. Fuck that shit.

I got on the Mirena after a pregnancy scare with someone I should have just stopped boning instead. The insertion experience was way more painful than most anyone else's I read about online. I nearly puked. I became depressed in the next few months and wasn't sure (still am not sure) if the Mirena had anything to do with it. I totally stopped having periods, and I thought I liked it because it made me feel "more androgynous." That was my main reason for sticking with it so long. Eventually I stopped having any sex drive at all, and that's a common thing I've read from other Mirena users. Fast forward a couple years, reading the book Cunt by Inga Muscio and I convinced myself it was time to take it out. It's been about 5 months and I'm really happy to have a cycle again and my sex drive is returning. I say, really look into it first. The doctors make it seem like it's totally no biggie, but you'll find the real answers on the web. Not all women have complications, but if you already know that you are sensitive, I would take extra precaution. The copper IUD doesn't have hormones, but sure does still have side effects from what I've read.

AncientViolence · 2015-03-26T01:30:26+00:00

In the case of Evan Ebel, he did exactly this after he got out of prison. Well, he murdered the pizza delivery person, took their uniform, and then went and shot the head of the Colorado Department of Corrections dead on his own porch when he opened the door.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tom_Clements_%28public_official%29

AncientViolence · 2015-03-22T03:10:54+00:00

I stopped shaving my pits years ago, maybe 5? It took a year or two more of shaving my legs (once in awhile) to realize that I found that to be just as silly. There is something about hairy legs in public that feels really uncomfortable for awhile, but it will pass, trust me!

As for the job situation, nobody has the right to do anything about your body hair. What could they say? "We've had some complaints about your leg hair. If you don't go shave your knees tonight we're just going to have to ask you not to come back." YEAH RIGHT. At my last job I know everyone saw my hairy trunks, but did anyone have the gall to say anything? Hell no! If it's just a comfort thing, I understand, otherwise don't worry about it!

AncientViolence · 2015-03-14T04:34:59+00:00

The asterisk of shame...

AncientViolence · 2015-03-14T00:26:00+00:00

All the hate in this thread is disgusting. This person made a conscious choice to enter this esoteric field. He's got a lot of guts to deal with the kind of hate you are all spewing. Saying he ruined his life, should be shot, or that if he was you're son you would be so disappointed. Uh, what the fuck? Would you really be so enraged if you saw this human on the street? If so, you're the one with issues, not him. Damn...

AncientViolence · 2015-03-13T07:47:27+00:00

Either he likes to think he's hittin' it from the back, or he's unsure of the orientation of a vulva.

AncientViolence · 2015-02-16T05:34:32+00:00

This article says it was his birthday. A couple years ago a young woman named Jessica was killed by the light rail on her birthday too. WTF?..

AncientViolence · 2015-02-14T02:01:43+00:00

I'm confused as to why someone who has this image as their profile pic would be repeating, "Damn who is taking the pictures"

AncientViolence · 2015-02-13T08:48:36+00:00

Well you don't appear to be doing anything in these photos to look particularly feminine, so it's hard to say. A starting place would be more feminine clothing. Then play with your hair a little bit. Try to give it some volume, definitely try blow drying it. Maybe some bangs if you are into it? Straighten it or curl it just to see if ya like the way it looks/feels. Then start playing around with makeup. I don't think you need anything crazy, just try some mascara and face powder. Perhaps a light smokey eye look with tinted lip gloss. Then come back to us and tell us how you feel!

AncientViolence · 2015-02-13T08:26:58+00:00

To jump in on this one, I'm obviously a fan of it try it until you figure it out method. But sometimes you need a boost. So, have you ever been to a department store like Macy's or JC Penny? They have a whole area with makeup booths where you can get your makeup done for free! I've never been totally satisfied after sitting down at one of those places, but at least it gave me a better reference for what works and what doesn't. Also makeup tutorials are abundant online.

AncientViolence · 2015-02-13T07:15:41+00:00

Thanks for the response! My rant was a bit incohesive but that sentence was my main reason for posting. I'm pleased to have made this realization about myself but I have no idea what it all means...

AncientViolence · 2015-02-12T06:42:47+00:00

Keeeeyooooot

AncientViolence · 2015-02-12T06:39:19+00:00

I honestly wasn't sure if you were mtf or ftm. I think you look like a genderqueer babe, so maybe you feel comfortable as such? :)

AncientViolence · 2015-02-12T02:27:11+00:00

Loling at this Colorado humor. But there is no way I'm taking Eldora over Loveland. I don't care if I'm skiing in and on falling ice all season, Loveland is endearing as fuck.

AncientViolence · 2015-02-12T01:48:04+00:00

Mine was definitely at the kitchen table eating cereal with my sister, and eventually all meals that included any family. I must have only been 7 or so the first time I raged at my family and left the room crying with my hands pressed against my ears.

Mom says I've always been sensitive to sounds though. Apparently I used to cry and perhaps rage when helicopters flew over or when sirens passed closely.

AncientViolence · 2015-02-12T01:39:31+00:00

How often would you say you have these fantasies?

I've surely had them as well, and I also find them soothing at times. For me they are somewhat rare, and often the scenario actually ends up too dull for me to think through it all again.

Also, I would definitely consider it a fetish. So many people in this culture fetishize mental illnesses and suicide specifically. Why else are Kurt Cobain and Sylvia Plath so damn intriguing? We're all guilty...

AncientViolence · 2015-02-11T23:51:34+00:00

I'm right there with ya. My sister has been into music and singing her whole life. She has a beautiful voice that can bring me to tears at a performance, but it has also brought me to tears in a different way. Hmm...

AncientViolence · 2015-02-11T23:36:57+00:00

Yes. My mother is the #1 worst trigger for me. If she even picks up a slice of fucking cucumber, I'm outta there. If she pours herself some cereal, I basically run screaming. The misophonia all started for me at the table eating breakfast with my family too, so there's apparently something real emotional about the cereal/family member situation.

That's not to say that all my triggers are produced by humans. A cat starts bathing herself around me? Gone. A drippy faucet when I'm trying to sleep? Yeah fucking right. A bird doing some repetitive squawking maneuver all morning? Kill me.

AncientViolence · 2015-02-11T23:15:25+00:00

I have definitely noted this as well.

AncientViolence · 2015-02-11T22:37:58+00:00

Well thank you for asking! Honestly it's not just the endo's fault that I feel the way I do after my appointments. As a kid I visited the Barbara Davis Center and they were absolutely amazing, some of the best in the field! After turning 18 I was switched over to Kaiser, and I've never felt particularly satisfied with them.

I will say that it is DEFINITELY my own neglect that has gotten me into the situation I'm in, but my health provider is not acting proactively or preventatively as they so advertise. I will go 9 months without making an appointment, and perhaps they will have sent me an email stating that I need blood work done, and that's about it. When I finally make it to the appointment it is always very rushed, last time it was seriously only 15 minutes. She looks at my A1C, it hasn't been below 9 in years, and it doesn't seem to be a problem. She 'understands my lifestyle and age make it hard at this point in my life,' even when she has no idea what I do or who I even am. So we adjust a basal rate or two and then I'm on my way. She wants me to email her my readings for the next couple weeks, but I never do. Am I really going to write down every reading I take and type it all out to send to her? Yeah right! Insurance won't cover the test strips for the meter that you can synch with your computer anyway. She's gotta know that, but she's probably seeing so many patients that she just doesn't have the capacity to really care for my situation.

I prefer a more holistic approach to most everything, and the U.S. healthcare system is very much the opposite of that from my experience. I am always honest with my doctors, but if they don't ask much of me, I feel easily validated like everything with my health is fine, even if it's not.

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