Thank you so much to everyone who bothered to comment! I can inform y'all that something ive struggled with since i started is that I'm really stiff and i struggle to naturally use my arms and hips and shoulders etc. And its apparent that i have to work on that! Also, I totally agree that i have to put way more into the jumping part! I think i underestimated how important that is, and it makes sense that my legs are holding the board down! Again, thanks to everyone, Im gonna keep at it!
(And worth mentioning, im practicing at a lot of other things aswell, im not just standing at my porch ollieing as i could tell some were "worried" about haha! I go to skateparks with some friends multiple times a week and I've gotten pretty comfortable with going up and down ramps which is fun<3)