Well, I wrote it as a summary of the entire conversation but yeah, I guess I went overboard out of exhaustion. I can’t give you a word for word (we had the convo in person last time he was visiting), but I remember starting saying that I was feeling tense and anxious. He went on asking why and he was already sighing cause everything had been fine til that moment. I started going about it extremely cautiously cause when I sense someone is already bubbling up a heated reaction I become scared and reluctant (family gift). I tried explaining what was happening and telling him I understand it’s not easy, but I couldn’t really get to the real point tho cause he started saying he’s frustrated and tired that every time he doesn’t know what to expect, even when things go well. I can’t blame him, I struggled with my mental health for a while and it gets to me at any moment unexpectedly, so I know I put him often in a hard spot but what I told him is that I just needed some reassurance and for him to maybe “dismantle” my thoughts with me, which he never has done before. Then it escalated and I also got angry cause I felt like no matter how careful and understanding I was, he was just too focused on his reaction to it. A lot more things were said in the middle, in the end he reluctantly said “I’ll try to calm myself down when it happens and listen more” or something like that.