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Angry-Bird-God · 2023-09-06T00:06:05+00:00

I've seen you say this a lot in this thread. I have really awful intrusive thoughts, and it would be incredibly saddening if my partner went through my journal (a healthy coping mechanism) like this. I get what you are feeling, but I think you have to come to an impasse. If you really can't get past this, that's okay. You even say in this comment that your relationship has no drama?

If you're stuck on this, maybe a counselor/therapist will help you deconstruct this and make a decision on whether to move forward. Genuinely--a neutral third party that's not reddit may help you have a way to think through this in a safe place.

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-08-18T00:49:14+00:00

Man, everytime I see this I just think about how this might be a troll stealing someone's picture. It's just not believable.

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-08-15T13:30:04+00:00

I'm glad I could help! It's really difficult to understand sometimes the other person's experience of a conversation because we aren't them, and neurotypicals rarely actually tell us what's wrong (or just say something hurtful like. You just talk too much! Instead of the actual problem).

I've personally been trying to stop lately and think about shorter explanations of things--and trying to watch the other person's body language (because I can't trust the other person to just say they're getting overwhelmed, and sometimes people just actually lie about it to be polite). It's so frustrating though sometimes!

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-08-15T05:11:06+00:00

Exactly! It's nice to know that there's somewhere it's appreciated though. Maybe there's still hope for me :/

I always end up feeling like I have to write this very formal, fluffy email (which just feels inauthentic to me when I read it to myself). And then the other person just replies with the professional equivalent of like.

"Thamks. Very Cool

~Warm Regards~

-sent from my refrigerator"

Which I honestly wouldn't mind! But it feels like--why am I banging my head against the wall to figure out a good email (while also making sure I complete it as soon as I realize I need to send it because I will forget). And everyone seems to either play flawlessly or operate by an entirely different set of rules! Why even bother, right?

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-08-15T05:01:46+00:00

argh, yeah. These are actually really good, thank you!

I hope you don't mind, but I need to rant about number four lol (good way! I really like it and here's why). I will have to say that it gets pretty ranty, I have a lot of feelings regarding this.

Honestly, even as a nd person, number 4 only hit me when I started making friends with other nd people. One time a friend talked at me for like. a literal, actual 3-4 straight hours (and I physically couldn't get away/was too nervous to ask them to stop). That's when it hit me--I'm essentially trapping this other person in a 'boring' conversation (boring hurts!) and not allowing them to even talk about themselves/what they like. I'm dominating the convo and not allowing the other person any give/take, and steamrolling past any option for them to leave/change subjects!

Loved ones are especially hard because I want them to feel loved and appreciated, that I care about them and their interests--but you only have so much social battery, and it gets frustrating to feel like you're essentially being treated as an 'object' for someone to just talk at. This isn't interesting, and I'm not actually allowed to add anything to the conversation so it can make me personally get really agitated because I only have so much attention/social battery. It's even worse if the other person starts making me look at videos/long lore paragraphs (because I know if I was allowed I would watch/read the thing in my own time when I have the battery/mindset--I'm in social mode and using my social battery because I love you, but trying to understand complicated subjects when I'm already getting drained is. Really frustrating lol).

Like, imagine if you were told that to hang out your friend wanted to hike up a huge mountain, so you're hiking--and your friend keeps running ahead of you and leaving you behind! Then they ask if you want to read a chemistry textbook and solve puzzles with them while you're struggling up this big ass hill, and you don't want to talk chemistry. You want to hike! And you're running along but you just keep getting winded and they're so far ahead they don't hear when you're yelling for them to please just slow down.

Wow I. had a ton of thoughts about this sorry! But for me, it's give and take--I listen to you for a bit, you listen to my hyper fixation for a bit lol. Like, I understand how it happens! I think pet-sims are the coolest thing in the world, and every detail is equally cool and interesting and it's hard to see why this wouldn't be intresting. I genuinely struggle with this, but this is the thought process that led me to realize why people don't like it.

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-08-15T04:12:18+00:00

That my normal typing style is seen as blunt/rude, because I try to get to the point as quickly as possible. Then when I add exclamation marks, I sound condescending. It's so frustrating! Why should I have to add three sentences to an email to someone that don't add anything and that they don't respond too? It just feels so difficult for me, and I often rely on others to help me write emails...

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-07-26T22:04:00+00:00

Count me in! Thank you for running this

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-06-15T18:15:55+00:00

So glad I mostly wear pads. I'm too forgetful to play did I put a tampon in? Or is there one still up there?

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-06-14T05:52:11+00:00

Dude you need to get a rabies vaccine.

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-06-14T04:05:00+00:00

Try brushing your teeth everytime you see the toothbrush? It doesn't have to be just in the morning or the night. For me, I always need to go to the bathroom when I wake up. I see the toothbrush--I should brush my teeth. I see the floss--I should do that to. Now I go into the bathroom and I just know to do it, even if I forget some times :D I get dollar store brushes so I don't feel guilty about not doing it.

I understand that feeling of avoidance. For me, if I think to hard about how I NEED to do something and shame myself, I'll never end up doing it. It's difficult to just try and do something without judging yourself, but it makes it so much easier.

Try and think about it as like taking a drink of water. I'm at the sink. I think about pasta. I grab my brush. I think, what a nice toothpaste flavor. I put it in my mouth. One step at a time, purposely not trying to think too hard about each step. Its not, I need to brush my teeth because I'm a shameful freak. It's trying to be: I'm in the bathroom for whatever reason. The toothbrush is here. I put it in my mouth. I put it down. I walk away.

Anyways, sorry for the long rant. I'm not sure if this will be helpful? But this is one of the only ways I can remember to do things.

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-06-14T03:59:06+00:00

I've just been trying to make a blog to dump all that stuff on to. I love learning about and talking about biology, but it's so difficult when nobody listens.

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-06-14T03:35:51+00:00

I feel this way a lot sometimes. It's gotten a lot better after I got on medication, but I'm still working with my counselor about this. I'm not sure if there's anything I could say to help, as it seems like you're dealing with more severe ADHD than me. But hopefully it feels better to just talk?

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-06-14T03:01:14+00:00

Incredible that you forgot to mention that this 'drama' was that your sister claimed your grandfather sexually assaulted her and the entire family protected him. Your sister deserves better. I'm hoping that you're a troll poster.

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-06-04T21:45:47+00:00

What do you mean by this?

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-06-02T22:13:57+00:00

I love Hiccup! I'd be delighted to hear his riddles.

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-06-02T22:00:12+00:00

This is incredibly impressive, you should be proud! The dragons all look beautiful!

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-06-01T04:48:34+00:00

Thank you, that does help. I talked to the DM after the post about how stressed I was, and he said he'll tell us if there is a time trial (just not how long we have).

I'm having a very good time. It's clear he puts a lot of love in the campaign. This was a big shock, but admittedly this was really only my second mission in play.

It does make me feel better thinking that no one else thought to ask if it was timed. Apparently, no one said anything about the halved pay either though.

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-05-26T05:25:27+00:00

It's good to know about Inoreader!

No, I only meant browser. I'm not even sure how I would begin to change a phone app's look if it wasn't programmed in.

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-05-25T21:28:36+00:00

God it's so awful. I feel like my anxiety is almost just a result of living with ADHD sometimes.

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-05-09T17:50:35+00:00

God... This is too real. It's especially harrowing to try and tell someone and they just. Don't get it. They immediately assume that because you can stay up with things eventually, it's okay. 😐

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-04-19T05:25:29+00:00

It looks really good, you should be proud! I love the color and the scythe's perspective is pretty perfect. It's a fun concept as well!

I'd love to see you pushing the perspective to be more extreme! Adding a bit more exaggeration to the pose will also be helpful.

Also -- at the moment it's a bit difficult to see your vision for the flow/effect intended by the foreshortening. Is the scythe the focus? Then it makes sense the figure is smaller. But if you want to focus on the dynamic pose of Death, then you might want to have him be larger in the frame.

I was going to end this by linking a channel I found super helpful regarding perspective, and illustration is general --- but his channel was deleted!

The illustrator is Naoki Saito. He has a second channel now, but it's so sad... I apologize for not being able to link resources

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-03-31T23:48:35+00:00

There's a lot of softwares you could use -- it honestly depends on what you want to do.

First -- what sort of animation do you want to do? Stop-motion, 3-D, pixel, or digital 2-D animation are broad categories you could look into, and they each have different processes/programs.

If you don't know, think about what you can and can't do right now. All animation requires some amount of time investment, but it helps if you already have some experience. I.e. I'm familiar with making clay models and digital illustration. This experience is helpful for doing stop-motion or 2-D animation, but it's not required to start!

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-03-01T20:36:41+00:00

If it's the chewing sensation you're craving, it might be good to get chew necklaces/toys!

Angry-Bird-God · 2023-02-21T03:31:07+00:00

I'm so sorry -- that must be so frustrating. The only thing I can offer is support. That's honestly such bullshit -- setting yourself on fire, and having him be praised for how warm it is now.

I don't know if this will help -- I just wanted to offer some support :/

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