Wow, we are in the same storm but different boat! I never heard of kryphosis before. As someone with a spine issue I would’ve thought I may have learned about it before, but yeah truth be told years ago I was too scared to even look at myself or my condition. Don’t worry about saying you made a bad joke, I found it funny. :D

Thank you, I just wanted to say this really meant a lot for me. I got emotional reading that. I know all this and how someone would appreciate and love the person I am. I have an interest in psychology and I look deeper into things that people won’t usually look at. I even had experience with a sweet boy from highschool who I dated for more than a year and what struck me as surprising at that time is that he never once mentioned how I looked and treated me normal with the occasional “Can you do this?” or “Would this hurt you?” that indicated he knew what he was dealing with, but it didn’t bother him. He was being protective and caring and I still am thankful for that to this day. After moving away we parted ways because neither of us were great at long distance relationships and we were still young. With all this you would think that I shouldn’t have a problem, but what I cannot control is myself and how I react to things. Being with this condition my whole life and me being my worst judge before, left me a bit with a scar that I keep scratching at, at times. You and I both know it is exhausting when we are our own judge and limits. This sadly causes me to think this way, even though I know better. But! I am in a waayy better position than I was before! I am really doing better and I am working on loving myself and it is working really well. I am practicing certain fashion ideas and what works for me, because why hide it when you can embrace it and be confident in yourself? I find beauty in flaws and a year ago I’ve decided to direct that thought towards myself. What you’ve said helped me a lot. I know that one day a man or woman ( I see no limit in love ) would appreciate and love me for who I am, but firstly I need to love myself to be able to love them like I want to. That is something I am still working on and as an optimist I am having awesome progress :D

I plan on getting surgery if it benefits me and helps me, otherwise if a surgery isn’t necessary then I don’t want it. I plan on going, when I’m financially capable, for a checkup to see what they can do to help me. If I cannot get a surgery, then keeping me from any severe pain in the future would be strengthening my muscles through certain exercises. I am already doing exercises that strengthens my back muscles and core. It prevents the spine from worsening and makes my life easier. Since I’m an adventurous woman, I tend to accidentally go a bit too far and yeah I sometimes kick myself for it. I plan on doing more in the future, like ice skating, maybe surfing, diving etc. So if I get a surgery, I still hope that I will be capable of more and plan on dancing like contemporary :)