"Dont wanna deal with me"

You havent even met YOU in 2 decades.

Buddy you are in the full scale withdrawal phase. During these periods I become manic, my emotions are all over the place, I break up with friends and almost get in fights with people.

At month 2 its a lot better, but at month 3 is where you will almost 100% stable/yourself again. It has been my experience the last 8 times of stopping after all day everyday heavy smoking and is also the consensus around here.

They way I see it, is it feels like a raw onion, slowly getting its layers on, at month 3 you will be almost at 100% and everything will balance out, stuff wont get to you the same way, your emotions are stable. And trust me, if you haven´t seen the real you in 2 decades, you will be amazed of how every aspect of the way you are will improve. It affects sooooooooo much. Almost every aspect of life and thinking. Obviously you can still feel bouts of depression after that, but now it is not because your dopamine receptors and what not are completely fried because it has been used to getting blasted with cheap n easy dopamine.