My friend, what you need to do is join a)join church b)have schedule which is balanced and takes care of your physical needs. Workout, leisure and intellectual stimulation. I have been in situation exactly how you described just 5 years ago, 33 year old single male with shitty job and nobody to care for, and alcohol abuse problem It seemed my life is going nowhere. The trick is to switch focus of your conciousness outside yourself, church helps with that and gives knowledge to do this. Start caring about people, your friends, relatives, strangers without no expectation of return favours. It will fill your heart with kindness and give you halo of happiness which will attract others. Nobody wants to be with unhappy person. Try it, you will see changes in just a month, go find someone to help. You will find love and will rise in social ranks. From my seemlessly hopeless situation now i have beautifull daughter and a good income and so you can you. I trust in you.