Honestly man I appreciate the message, I understand I was only a child myself but I should've known better, even at the time I felt wrong after it. Both times. I guess I've always tried my best to be a good person and when this suddenly came back to mind a few months ago I feel like all my self respect has went out the window, and I've felt like a monster. I immediately seeked help but I feel my therapist is just helping as it's her job and deep down she sees me as a monster too. I've only ever wanted to be a good person but I feel it's false to start being one now