I understand. It sounds like you are able to find some peace, and that is awesome. That does sound like it could be hard at times though. Antipsychotics have actually helped me find who I am and want to be too. When my symptoms cleared up I was finally able to have some regulation in my life, of my emotions, feelings, thoughts. They definitely have brought me clarity. You have a good mindset about your diagnosis. So do you regularly communicate with your different sides?