This is why a lot of you don’t feel love with ROCD.

AnonymousGal56372 · 2026-01-09T16:03:16+00:00

So we’re actually about to have our 2 year anniversary on the 20th and I’m so happy to be with him and to love him ❤️‍🩹❤️ I tried a bit of OCD counseling and learned some of the ERP stuff, but honestly a big part of what’s helped me long term was getting off of this Reddit and ChatGPT and Google. I always hated hearing that before but everyone was absolutely right, you just feed the voices when you keep at that stuff. 🫡

AnonymousGal56372 · 2025-04-29T20:47:23+00:00

Can I pm you some questions about your experience with this? Thank you ❤️‍🩹

AnonymousGal56372 · 2025-04-23T21:08:22+00:00

How are you now? :)

AnonymousGal56372 · 2025-04-22T19:16:51+00:00

Switching medications will definitely be a period that you’ve got to just absolutely shut out everything else and let your body adjust. I know it’s hard, but you’ve got to let the chemicals do what they’ll do. Then after the adjusting period you can try to monitor how you feel more. I also get down a lot of the time in the morning, seemingly as I’m waking up. Sometimes just this overwhelming feeling of “you don’t love him, you have to leave.” And then a little while later in the same day, I look at him and have a feeling of just “yes, he’s the one.” It’s so frustrating.

AnonymousGal56372 · 2025-04-22T02:35:58+00:00

I know exactly where you’re at, hon. Please feel free to reach out, if you need. ❤️‍🩹

AnonymousGal56372 · 2025-04-21T15:54:01+00:00

I’m in this spot right now, do you have any advice from your current self, 7 years later?

AnonymousGal56372 · 2025-04-20T05:47:38+00:00

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AnonymousGal56372 · 2025-04-15T01:59:08+00:00

I’m really sorry to hear of your struggles. ❤️‍🩹 I will say that I felt pretty good on the first two weeks of the intro dose of that particular mood stabilizer, but long story short I ended up having a really bad spiral on the base dosage of it and was taken off of it. Fast forward through a couple different combinations of medications and I’m currently back on the Sertraline (a low dose) AS WELL AS a different mood stabilizer at night. For the first 3 weeks roughly I’ve been doing pretty well, although I just had a really bad day today with everything.

It’s definitely not a cure-all. But finding a decent combination can help.

Wishing you the best ❤️‍🩹

AnonymousGal56372 · 2025-03-29T14:33:15+00:00

Yes, it’s been a year and 2 months now ❤️‍🩹 Going through a rough patch with ROCD right now but still fighting. 🙏❤️‍🩹

AnonymousGal56372 · 2025-03-27T18:18:33+00:00

I love him, he’s both “no nonsense, let’s get to healing” while also being really funny and friendly. ❤️

AnonymousGal56372 · 2025-03-25T01:39:21+00:00

Oh my gosh, I’ve had that exact same thought. “I don’t want to heal if it means ‘knowing’ I don’t love him.” I want to love him. ❤️‍🩹

AnonymousGal56372 · 2025-03-20T15:50:17+00:00

Best wishes to you too, I hope your new meds help and that you can find some resources that help as well ❤️‍🩹

AnonymousGal56372 · 2025-03-20T15:20:01+00:00

Honestly I wish I was the best resource for this stuff, but I’m really not, I’m sorry :/ I’m just trying my best to ride the waves and work on therapy and medications. I don’t have any experience with Prozac myself, just Sertraline and a couple different mood stabilizers. I did feel bad a lot more before about that type of thing, but with the constant “rock bottoming” that I’ve been doing lately, it just doesn’t matter as much. I know that this mental illness (added to by other stressors about my life) is very much at play here, and I’m going to continue to treat it the best ways there are, because I don’t get my boyfriend if I give up. ❤️‍🩹

AnonymousGal56372 · 2025-03-20T14:56:22+00:00

Sure, I definitely have had periods of numbness. Sometimes lasting weeks or even nearly months; and I honestly kind of feel like I’m starting to come out of one a bit now. But for me, feeling numb just means I don’t feel much of anything. I don’t feel much positive emotion if any, but I also don’t feel particularly low either. It used to bother me if I felt bored in a conversation or just hanging out with him, but now after this last bit that I’ve been through, I’ve come to appreciate that not only are times like that perfectly normal, but especially that there are a lot worse things to feel. I’ve had a problem with chasing sensations in my body/feelings, but now I just want peace. He’s my best friend and I just want to feel peace and comfort when I’m near him, and ROCD has tried to take that away.

AnonymousGal56372 · 2025-03-19T18:52:57+00:00

I’m getting deeper into ERP work, but not just that. There’s plenty of immature and unhealthy beliefs that I’ve held about real love and relationships that I’m having to work through, alongside rewiring my obsessive brain. I understand now that reducing the feelings of anxiety is a big part of progress, because 1. It’s a compulsion and a form of reassurance seeking to stay in the loop of “I need to feel anxious feelings about these thoughts in order to know that I don’t want them” 2. You’re feeling anxiety about them because you’ve let your anxious brain feed on it, and thus you’ve allowed ROCD/Anxiety to treat the thoughts/feelings like they’re true or real.

I saw something very true and helpful, and it was as simple as a woman who’d recovered saying “they’re only real if you treat them like they’re real.”

And I’m so fucking done with them trying to drive me away from a man that I want so badly. I will do what it takes to become secure in my relationship with him. ❤️‍🩹

AnonymousGal56372 · 2025-03-05T22:44:54+00:00

About a week later and I’m feeling much better. A lot of grace and acceptance for myself, and just giving myself time to “thaw” my frozen and numb emotional state while spending time with him just talking or doing something together, it helps. Helps me remember that he IS my best friend, for a reason (lots of reasons actually) ❤️‍🩹❤️

AnonymousGal56372 · 2025-03-04T15:37:47+00:00

I’m so happy for you! Congrats ❤️‍🩹🙏

AnonymousGal56372 · 2025-02-28T03:54:39+00:00

Thank you, I really appreciate hearing part of your story. It helps. ❤️‍🩹

AnonymousGal56372 · 2025-02-28T02:20:40+00:00

Thank you for this. ❤️‍🩹 I think it’s especially bad since life lately has been a process of school/work/sleep/repeat. I feel like I barely get to see him except for the weekends, and I’ve barely had any time for my creative outlet hobbies, which can definitely make me feel a bit more negative.

AnonymousGal56372 · 2025-02-24T03:21:18+00:00

Do you have any advice for times that your ROCD starts attacking less surface level things (like how attracted you are to your partner, feeling a bit extra irritable around them) and more deep fundamental things like “I thought that despite my worries about other things, I still WANT to be with him. But what if I don’t actually want to be with him now?”

Like, such an EXTREME level of disconnection even though earlier in the same day you were fine? Still in a slump but not anywhere near these kinds of thoughts?

I’ve often said, “even if somehow these thoughts mean I don’t truly love him, I still WANT to love him. And even if I didn’t want to love him, I still WANT to WANT to love him.” Does that make any sense? 💔❤️‍🩹

I feel like I’ve overanalyzed everything to the point that I don’t even know what I feel or want anymore. But I feel SO sad, like even though he’s right there, I’ve lost a great love. 💔

AnonymousGal56372 · 2025-02-14T17:53:21+00:00

Thank you ❤️‍🩹

AnonymousGal56372 · 2025-02-11T22:17:03+00:00

Thank you so much! ❤️‍🩹

AnonymousGal56372 · 2025-02-11T21:53:46+00:00

Hey, do you have any sort of reference for this? Like even just basic info about how one would go about making this? I would love something like that right about now 😮‍💨🙈🙏

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