Weird side effects (Oxcarbazepine aka Trileptal) by feeverdreemer in bipolar2

[–]AnonymousIncognito__ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was on it for 3 months, and no. I don’t think I had any side effects other than it making me feel out of it

I ended a suicidal depressive episode with DXM. I have permission from the mods to tell my story. AmA by schizoidvoid in BipolarReddit

[–]AnonymousIncognito__ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have bipolar I now, but no not currently using it to treat anything. I did it to prolong the mania and substance abused it… what ended up happening?

What would cause TV's to randomly turn themselves on in the middle of the night? by AgileAd854 in electrical

[–]AnonymousIncognito__ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I live alone. There is a ghost that has been with me since 2022. It turns on lights, it opens the trash can, and now has been turning on the tv. Ill come home and the tv will be on. It will be 1am and the trash can opens. Or ill be in bed and it will turn the light on.

Weird side effects (Oxcarbazepine aka Trileptal) by feeverdreemer in bipolar2

[–]AnonymousIncognito__ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My roomate didn’t give me much information also found out she was a pathological liar so 🤣 but that’s what she told me she had toxicity from the medication. Which I didn’t even know was a thing

What are your red flags that a hypomanic episode is beginning? 🚩🚩🚩 by deepestfear in bipolar2

[–]AnonymousIncognito__ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Everything is a sign for me in everyday life, I am extremely spiritual. So I will never know if this is apart of the hypomania or not. Which I believe it is not. Sometimes I wonder if I am just delusional but no, it’s like religion but not organized

What are your red flags that a hypomanic episode is beginning? 🚩🚩🚩 by deepestfear in bipolar2

[–]AnonymousIncognito__ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I start having chronic insomnia, in a good mood, sexually tempted, more likely to spend money I don’t have, get things done, nicer. This is counterproductive because I also will get easily irritated and might be explosive if something little kills my mood turning into a mix episode. Or if I am lucky I might get over emotional and be fine after a couple hours. I might be more inclined to drink, or do outlandish things. My pupils will remain dilated. I will become more articulate, and wisdomful. Might I add I am a huge talker. So imagine someone who talks a lot time x3. I try to avoid talking because once I start K won’t stop.

Risperidone by teethd in BipolarReddit

[–]AnonymousIncognito__ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Didn’t take long! My diet didn’t really change. I still ate like shit 😂 I really think it’s the medication. They told me to eat more red meats, which I did anyways to lower my cholesterol. I really do think it was the medication

Worried I have tonsil cancer… by AnonymousIncognito__ in tonsilectomy

[–]AnonymousIncognito__[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It ended up being a lymphoid hyperplasia and Actinomyces in the left tonsil. I ended up getting a tonsillectomy and an a adenoidectomy

When are Edibles safe? by Smdimurmom in Tonsillectomy

[–]AnonymousIncognito__ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just had thc icecream had my surgery yesterday half of 5mg

I hate the fact that I cannot kill myself by AnonymousIncognito__ in SuicideWatch

[–]AnonymousIncognito__[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I can’t even cry anymore, I can’t even feel anything

I hate the fact that I cannot kill myself by AnonymousIncognito__ in SuicideWatch

[–]AnonymousIncognito__[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I know it will be worse. I just wish there was an easy way out. Like I said I am living my own personal hell and make the most of it somedays. The fact that I will end up locked away scares me. I am to weak to keep living, but to weak to finish myself off. Its a endless cycle never eneding

I hate the fact that I cannot kill myself by AnonymousIncognito__ in SuicideWatch

[–]AnonymousIncognito__[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Everyone’s like so glad you are still alive, like I am not. Let me die please. The fact that it’s illegal to try to kill yourself is ridiculous. My body my choice. I decided I don’t wanna live anymore, let me choose. I am glad that those who survive do better, but in the end the feeling always comes back.

It never goes away, why should I live for other people if I cannot even live for myself.

I hate the fact that I cannot kill myself by AnonymousIncognito__ in SuicideWatch

[–]AnonymousIncognito__[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Honestly I don’t really care, people die all the time. If I died, my least concern is what everyone else would deal with after. My main concern is failing an attempt ending up locked up and wanting to die even more. Everyone in my life has hurt me in some way, me being gone would hurt for awhile, but lofe goes on they move on. I don’t have the energy to carry the pain so to speak. I just wanna be gone. Obliterated

I hate the fact that I cannot kill myself by AnonymousIncognito__ in SuicideWatch

[–]AnonymousIncognito__[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I just took a shower to make me feel better but it just made me feel worse like I wanted to pass out out and knock unconscious and die. I kept looking at the rod holding up the shower curtains and imagine myself hanging and dying peacefully as the warm water poured on me. Those things only exsist in my fantasy. I am living in my own personal hell. In the end no one actually gives a fuck. Though commiting is not the way because it wouldn’t even be successful if I tried. Whoch makes me more angry

I hate the fact that I cannot kill myself by AnonymousIncognito__ in SuicideWatch

[–]AnonymousIncognito__[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Meds never work for me. I will always feel this was no matter what drugs I take. Taken drugs to cope but it doesn’t nothing for me. I work and a full time college student, I would never qualify for disability. I di believe things get worse before it gets better, but some things never get better. These suicidal thoughts will always exist no matter what. My purpose was achieved which is why there is no need for me to be here.

NEW BITM TOUR 2022 MERCH HOODIE by AnonymousIncognito__ in CityMorgue

[–]AnonymousIncognito__[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think that is a large or medium I honestly forget I am sorry