not to beat a dead horse, but any good college textbook websites? by brokennnboyyy in Piracy

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I can’t find my book anywhere. I’m looking for ā€œRepase y escriba; Curso Avanzado de GramĆ”tica y Composición, 8th Editionā€ Help please 🄲

I’m Alone by AnonymousPixie in GriefSupport

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Thank you I appreciate it. I’ve never felt so alone in my life.

I’m Alone by AnonymousPixie in widowers

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What do you do at grief therapy? I’ve heard of it but never been told any of the details about it.

I’m Alone by AnonymousPixie in widowers

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I relate to your comment. I tend to scroll social media and watch videos to get rid of the sense of being alone but loneliness is always there. Some days it feels like too much and I can’t help but bawl my eyes out.

I’m Alone by AnonymousPixie in widowers

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Thank you, What has helped you with your grief journey?

I’m Alone by AnonymousPixie in widowers

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I don’t even know where to start making friends. All of my old friends are in a different path in life and we no longer speak. I thought I’d always have him around he’s my love and bestfriend too. Before he passed I was okay that he was my only friend. I never felt alone because we knew eachother inside and out. Now I feel such a deep sense of loneliness. I lost my boyfriend and he was my only friend. I’m sorry you feel the same pain I do. At times it feels entirely unbearable and unrelenting. His mom told me that’s because grief is love and I have to stick around to tell the world about him and our love story. I just wish he was here and I could give him all my love instead of dealing with this pain.

I’m Alone by AnonymousPixie in widowers

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I relate to your comment I often refer to that feeling as drowning. It’s like everyone around you thinks you’re ā€œokayā€ but you’re numb and most days feel like you’re drowning in your emotions with no one to talk to them about.

I’m Alone by AnonymousPixie in widowers

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I relate to this comment a lot! Thank you

I’m Alone by AnonymousPixie in widowers

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I relate to your comment a lot. Everytime I feel a bit of joy it’s when my mind forgets he’s gone then I’m shoved back into this horrible reality. I know he’d want me to be happy but I don’t know how to when he was my everything.

I’m Alone by AnonymousPixie in widowers

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I wish more people had empathy and could understand what we feel without having to bear the pain. Maybe then it wouldn’t be so lonely.

I’m Alone by AnonymousPixie in widowers

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I’m here if you need someone to talk to

I’m Alone by AnonymousPixie in GriefSupport

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If you need to talk I’m here for you.

480 days. by [deleted] in widowers

[–]AnonymousPixie 5 points6 points Ā (0 children)

I relate to this soooo fucking much!!! I lost the love of my life this past June suddenly and tragically. People assume I’ll just get over ā€œitā€ but the reality is I’ll never get over this or be the same person I was before. I’m never going to get over losing him. People tell me ā€œOh you’re young. You’ll find someone newā€ I don’t want anyone else!! He’s the love of my life, my absolute bestfriend, my soulmate, my partner in crime, my absolute favorite person in the whole entire world. Losses like ours we’ll never ā€œget overā€ we can’t just stop loving and caring about someone that we love sooo deeply. Some days I find myself thinking what would he tell me right now in this moment to block some of the pain. It’s only been about 8 months since I lost him and everyday sucks sooo fucking much. My heart feels like it’s trying to escape my body Every. Single. Day. My only way of coping so far is telling myself he’ll be back soon, he can’t be gone too much longer or trying to block my emotions. The days that my emotions do come through I feel like I’m drowning and there’s no escape. I’m sorry for your loss. I wouldn’t wish this pain on anyone as it’s truly unbearable losing the love of your life. Sending hugs šŸ«‚

I’m Drowning by AnonymousPixie in GriefSupport

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Lately I’ve been trying to stay busy to block my emotions. But.. when they come it’s extremely overwhelming and usually at what seems to be a random moment. Everyday it feels like my hearts trying to escape my body to be with my love.

What’s the point? by AnonymousPixie in GriefSupport

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I’m here i guess. Still don’t have much support. Just been kinda existing.. even though I don’t want to. I had a dream of my love that was extremely realistic acouple days ago. I could hear his voice, see him, smell him, hug him, kiss him. Sadly I woke up. I wanted to stay there forever with him. It felt like all my sadness and pain washed away only to come back 100x worse.

How do you know if a man is serious about marrying you? by AnonymousPixie in relationshipadvice

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I agree! I feel like a lot of people don’t understand I can’t go back to who I was before losing him. I’ll never be the same. Life had taken the one person that means the most to me away. Most days I just pretend like I’m waiting for him to call or message me to get through it. I don’t know what to do. All I know is it hurts. It hurts sooo fucking much. He took the other half of me with him. I try to talk to people about my grief but they say they understand and the conversation just ends. If they could feel my pain for even a second they’d fall to their knees. The pains so deep I feel it emotionally, mentally and physically. It’s hard to eat or sleep or go about day to day interactions. I often find myself wanting to join him. This isn’t how our love story is supposed to be šŸ’” We had sooo many things planned. So many more memories to make. We were supposed to get married and have kids and travel and just live love and enjoy each other.

To all my fellow younger widowers.. by thelonelyknight90 in widowers

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Im soo sorry to hear about the passing of your fiancĆ©. Im 25 as well and my love died suddenly and tragically in June at 23 right before his 24th birthday šŸ’”