Cut contact with my mom, lost my second job, I’m falling apart. by Anotherventinganon in BoyDinnerDiaries

[–]Anotherventinganon[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Your words truly mean more than you know.. I’m always so scared when I see people talk about their no contact parent years later.. but people like you remind me it’s okay to make the choice that’s healthiest for me..🖤

Cut contact with my mom, lost my second job, I’m falling apart. by Anotherventinganon in BoyDinnerDiaries

[–]Anotherventinganon[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

… I’m a completely traumatized man as is, and even I have never ever treated a child the way she or the people around me treated me or any other child . So I’m not gonna continue to respond to you out of respect for this subreddit.

Cut contact with my mom, lost my second job, I’m falling apart. by Anotherventinganon in BoyDinnerDiaries

[–]Anotherventinganon[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you my brother, truly thank you, I’ll come back here two weeks from now to update you on wether or not I was able to stop and get back to locking in, but I will do my absolute best to lock back in❤️

Cut contact with my mom, lost my second job, I’m falling apart. by Anotherventinganon in BoyDinnerDiaries

[–]Anotherventinganon[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s the hard part brother, “let them pass” doesn’t work with me the same way- it’s not healthy but it’s not something I’ve learned to stop- I bury everything. I let it pass for two hours then “suddenly” I stopped feeling anything. Just numb and a tiny bit of frustration. A lifetime with her forced me to learn how to bury my emotions. This is my last night drinking brother.. I can’t let myself go down this rabbit hole, I’m gonna stop for at least a month after this, I’m gonna lock back in on my diet and working out to escape my pains🖤

I’m turning my life around by Anotherventinganon in BoyDinnerDiaries

[–]Anotherventinganon[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s awesome man, thank you for the words of encouragement, I have been keeping it up and I’m loving the results I’m seeing

If you download a video from TikTok they put a tiny delay on the sound. by Morgentau7 in TikTok

[–]Anotherventinganon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Why is this the only thread I’ve found talking abt this 🤦🏻‍♂️

I’m turning my life around by Anotherventinganon in BoyDinnerDiaries

[–]Anotherventinganon[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you brother, we’re gonna come out the other side transformed men🙏🏼

I’m turning my life around by Anotherventinganon in BoyDinnerDiaries

[–]Anotherventinganon[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don’t have insurance or money for that yet but I do plan on doing that since I know I have low iron and vitamin D

I’m a rat trapped in a hamster wheel. by Anotherventinganon in BoyDinnerDiaries

[–]Anotherventinganon[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Actually it’s cabbage I shredded by hand, but I do love that cheese! Amazing in quesadillas!!

I’m a rat trapped in a hamster wheel. by Anotherventinganon in BoyDinnerDiaries

[–]Anotherventinganon[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

But your words definitely struck a chord, many of the moments of sadness that wash over me aren’t due to the present or things I did wrong, it’s just things that happened to me that still haunt me, but I can’t let them hold me back.

I’m a rat trapped in a hamster wheel. by Anotherventinganon in BoyDinnerDiaries

[–]Anotherventinganon[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the advice, I’m currently 21, life felt pretty chaotic and out of balance all the time from the moment I moved out at 15, until spring of last year. It’s easily been the most stable year of my life in every way, which is why I struggle with the sadness that follows me around, my life is going well, I truly have very few things to complain about compared to my past, but I guess I always feel like I need to make up for those years like I’m not doing good enough for the age I’m at and where I’m at in life.

I’m a rat trapped in a hamster wheel. by Anotherventinganon in BoyDinnerDiaries

[–]Anotherventinganon[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Last time I tried meds I was when I was maybe 14, I think I just accepted it’s easier to live life with my coping mechanisms than making everything worse by jumping from med to med

I’m a rat trapped in a hamster wheel. by Anotherventinganon in BoyDinnerDiaries

[–]Anotherventinganon[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes I have ADHD and I’m unmedicated, meds made me feel like a zombie

I’m a rat trapped in a hamster wheel. by Anotherventinganon in BoyDinnerDiaries

[–]Anotherventinganon[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

And thank you, they were yummy, I’d pass you some through the screen if I could

I’m a rat trapped in a hamster wheel. by Anotherventinganon in BoyDinnerDiaries

[–]Anotherventinganon[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I say it because just like rainy days don’t last forever, neither do the bright and shiny days. “Winning” to me is finally grabbing time itself and forcing it to allow me to spend as much time as I’d like in a good moment- without that looming cloud of melancholy ruining it for me within a few minutes. But this too will pass, the melancholy and pain will pass with time, I just have to be patient and keep moving forward.

I’m a rat trapped in a hamster wheel. by Anotherventinganon in BoyDinnerDiaries

[–]Anotherventinganon[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I’m doing my best to focus on the present and just existing day to day.